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Some days I feel like I can lift my shade of obliviousness just enough to catch sight of all of the people who think I'm not enough of something. Sometimes I try to make a joke at a store, but am met with silence. Sometimes I don't know what my bosses want me to do, and I can sense their disappointment. Sometimes I want to hang out with my co-workers, but I'm uncertain if it's okay to invite myself along when they are going out to lunch without me. The worst part is that I can't trust my instincts. All of this could just be in my head.

I'm trying not to, but sometimes it's hard not to spiral. It sucks being new.

Apparently I stammer. Who knew?

Hi Fern! Feeling like you're not good enough is always a crappy feeling. What helps me is that a lot of the time, people aren't really thinking about you, they're focused on their own thoughts and their own internal realities. One thing, that may be easier said than done, to break out of this and find out what people really think is to ask directly. Like you can schedule a meeting with your bosses to find out about your work performance, and ask for specific feedback on what they would like you to be doing. Also, definitely go out to lunch with your coworkers, and check out their facial expressions and mannerisms during the lunch. It may go better than you expect, and if they don't like you, whatever, they suck anyway.

I used to sound unsure, and stammer also, mostly because I think way faster than I speak. So I usually try to let the thought 'simmer' and then speak.

Hope this kinda helps...