WHY WAS I EVEN BORN?

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There's nothing left to look forwards to. Nothing but seeing my parents die, the few other people I still care about die, and for me to die. Why was I born this way? Why is the world this way? Just let me go to sleep forever please.

*big hugs* I'm sorry you're feeling this way. But don't lose hope yet. There is still time for things to get better, for you to discover new things that make you happy, and to help others, even in small ways. When you feel like this, take a break and concentrate on your interests or things that make you smile, and remind yourself that tomorrow is another day.

^^ what she said.

Here's another hug, and sweet kitty comfort.



Edit in: and some Buddhist thought from Pema Chodron:

Lostonearth35, you say there's nothing left to look forward to. How did you come to feel this way?

Esmerelda, great Buddhist thought there.

Alternatively, you might meet someone awesome tomorrow, who gives you joy and connection.
You might encounter an idea that radically changes your whole perspective.
You might solve a problem and that in turn changes your emotional landscape.
Feelings are transient. It was once said that despair is not so much some kind of sin as it is a simple mistake. You cannot know what will happen in the future of your personal life. All you are basing this negative judgement on is the negative feelings you are experiencing right now. And those things are highly subject to change, under all kinds of conditions.
This is the nature of life. It is what it is. The reasons way it is this way are many - chemical, biological, physical, mathematical, energetic, philosophical.
Better to just deal with how you're feeling right now, and improving and understanding that better, and coming up with some practical strategies to help you resolve those problems, instead of trying to foretell the future and transpose a negative judgement on spacetime you, as yet, have no access to.

I dont know as I don’t know why I was born either.

We’re here for you lost. Please share your thoughts with trusted humans irl too. I believe each human is on a journey searching for meaning & we grow from these experiences. Growth is good, but so painful. Keep using your words online & off with safe humans.

I understand the feeling. I'm the youngest in the family and occasionally the fear of losing them and living the rest of my life without them completely takes over. But that normally lasts for less than an hour before I'm back to normal. The way I see it, if I sit around and fear losing them, then I will miss out on so many memorable occasions together. It's perfectly okay to lament every once in a while. It acts as a reminder to just how important they are to you.

The only thing that keeps me going is knowing how much it would hurt the people I care about when I'm gone. It's for this reason that I rarely continue living for my own sake. It gives me the strength to move on even when I just want to disappear. It is in no way an easy choice to make, but it's the only option this cruel world has left me with, and I'm taking it no matter how difficult my life becomes.