I feel hopeless and wann just stop living.
I have been lurking WP for years and have read many of your posts, sly. You seem like a pretty cool guy who's just unlucky in life. I would rather hang out with you than 99% of shallow, judgmental NTs in this country. You're not afraid to express how you really feel whereas most people would feel compelled to "suck it up" because that's what society expects us to do. I hope things turn around for you, but am not terribly optimistic because I'm in the same boat as you. Take care.
I wish people would take the positive things, you know eat the meat and spit out bones but sometimes consuming the wrong messages make it a negative. Use it if you need it
I don't want to recommend that for Sly, but he can correct me if my assumption is wrong.
(thoughts on religion, don't read if easily triggered by some church teachings) I see that Sly's angst deals most of the time with not having a partner to share a bond or cuddle with. I have grown up in church before, and I became disillusioned by how anti-relationship/anti-sex they are. It has made me feel very depressed myself. If their God thinks that we should only enjoy something "better" than sex or romantic relationships for all eternity, making it null, then he is indeed a very uncaring, cruel deity. In fact, it feels like I was already depressed and lonely, and God and the church is telling us that way has made my situation a lot worse. I would never wish even my worst enemy that God will nullify their romantic and sexual desires in this life. Ditto for individuals or teachers themselves, because a lot of religious teaching is generally empathetic and even scary to others who are struggling.
I wish people would take the positive things, you know eat the meat and spit out bones but sometimes consuming the wrong messages make it a negative. Use it if you need it
I don't want to recommend that for Sly, but he can correct me if my assumption is wrong.
(thoughts on religion, don't read if easily triggered by some church teachings) I see that Sly's angst deals most of the time with not having a partner to share a bond or cuddle with. I have grown up in church before, and I became disillusioned by how anti-relationship/anti-sex they are. It has made me feel very depressed myself. If their God thinks that we should only enjoy something "better" than sex or romantic relationships for all eternity, making it null, then he is indeed a very uncaring, cruel deity. In fact, it feels like I was already depressed and lonely, and God and the church is telling us that way has made my situation a lot worse. I would never wish even my worst enemy that God will nullify their romantic and sexual desires in this life. Ditto for individuals or teachers themselves, because a lot of religious teaching is generally empathetic and even scary to others who are struggling.
Doesn't work for everybody, like a relationship might not always patch up a lonesome/distressed person. It's an option, belief and faith is a very powerful tool... More than most realize, wouldn't be any functioning religions without the need for those things on a humanistic level. If someone's lost hope or faith like OP's alluded to, then I think it's an option
Religious people can be trash sometimes (maybe an understatement) but 'eat the meat, spit out the bones' was generally my message to OP if he has no place to turn
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You will find no life in a dead object, and a dead object can give no life
only life can give others life.
How does a book write itself with no author?
Can you call a book that only has pictures of objects on the pages with no words a story?
I have ADHD and I can read books, but I need to find books that can keep my interest lot of adventure books can do that, a key for me is to turn off electronics, remove myself from noise and distraction to only have the book to keep my attention.
Gaming communities, have a short life but their always be news ones
if friends leave they leave and that's cool if they do
their will be some days you will find new friends that don't leave but you need to be hopeful.
worthless is using time about how one self is worthless
worry is that of decay and death and nothing lives in it.
A man who only worries about what will be written on his grave
will find nothing written on it.
Begin writing your story we can only encourage you.
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It’s for work so it’s not an option to not do.
then as an alternate editorial reply to such a stupid regime, i'd give a snarky answer to whatever silly@$$ed security question they throw at me.
It’s for work so it’s not an option to not do.
then as an alternate editorial reply to such a stupid regime, i'd give a snarky answer to whatever silly@$$ed security question they throw at me.
Just another thing pointing out how pointless I am. I really don’t belong in this world.
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It’s for work so it’s not an option to not do.
then as an alternate editorial reply to such a stupid regime, i'd give a snarky answer to whatever silly@$$ed security question they throw at me.
Just another thing pointing out how pointless I am. I really don’t belong in this world.
you and me both.
It’s for work so it’s not an option to not do.
then as an alternate editorial reply to such a stupid regime, i'd give a snarky answer to whatever silly@$$ed security question they throw at me.
Just another thing pointing out how pointless I am. I really don’t belong in this world.
I really don't want people to say that sort of thing.
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It’s for work so it’s not an option to not do.
then as an alternate editorial reply to such a stupid regime, i'd give a snarky answer to whatever silly@$$ed security question they throw at me.
Just another thing pointing out how pointless I am. I really don’t belong in this world.
I really don't want people to say that sort of thing.
Why? I’m just a useless burden on the work with no future. If I wasn’t religious I’d probably just killed my self already. I haven’t been able to figure out a way around the sin part so I haven’t done it. I just keep hoping for a freak accident. train derailed and killed bunch of people sadly I don’t ride train as I can’t afford it. But bus accidents happen so maybe som bus will crash and kill me at some point. Or there world war, or mass shootOmg or just getting hit by a car crossing the street like those poor kids. What I don’t get is why godnkilled those kids and those people who all mean something and have life’s and futures but keeps me alive to suffer.
Seems some of us belong less than others.
True that. I don’t even belong here it seems. I’m too wrong for wrong planet
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Seems some of us belong less than others.
True that. I don’t even belong here it seems. I’m too wrong for wrong planet
why do you say you don't belong here? you belong here IMHO just as much as I do.
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