I'm absolutely terrified about my life and where it's going

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I very, very much fear the future and have for a long time. I never achieved a high school diploma and have been very sick off and on over the years. When I had a period of good health after a successful surgery at the end of 2013 I ended up falling into a deep period of depression wasting more time (time I could have used to fix things, or at least try). Than another thing happened, and then another .. then I ended up getting in trouble with the law in 2015 spending 6 months in jail for a non violent offence. After that I fell deep into ''autistic obsessions'' and just zoned out into space.

My mother was diagnosed with Cancer last year, received surgery in the summer but now.. she is showing symptoms of it again. I am living with her and she is my sole financial support. They also found a mass in my adrenal glands which I am hoping is also not Cancer. And there's been more health problems for me...

And that is not all, there is so much more I have not written down. Oh God. It's just so many things. I turned 28 less than a week ago and things are really, really, really feeling like they're coming to an end. I definitely fear the prospect of homelessness. I mean I have no education, or skills, I can not drive, I am a poor learner and have been in very poor health. Not to mention the criminal charges.

In Canada, specifically Ontario things seem to be getting much worse. They have slashed several programs to help people get on their feet and it's almost impossible to find a job. Cost of living is deplorable.

I don't know what to do. Can someone help me make a plan? I would appreciate any ideas. This is a spiders web of terror for me. Every year it just got more tangled.

You could try moving to a better place so your not dependant on your mother anymore. Some places have more help than others.

I went to a really low point in my life 4 years ago and I felt life was literally over. It seemed I had nothing left.

At the moment I am the happiest I've been in years. All thanks to changing my eating habits. I used to think 'blah' and 'I can never learn to cook different foods'.

Gradually I built up my knowledge of cooking and nutrition. First I went gluten free.

Then dairy free.

Both made a difference in helping ease depression and anxiety. Not enough though.

Then I started eating less carbs like potatoes and rice and more low carb sources of energy like quinoa and buckwheat. And I have never had so much energy and confidence, at least not that I remember.

It takes time to change but it's worth it. I started slow. Learned to make soups. Big ones that made leftovers I can freeze and reheat easily. At first they had potatoes in them. Then I switched to adding quinoa or buckwheat.

Most of us these days eat a diet that is nothing like what cavemen and women ate. And that is how humans are probably designed to eat/ so if you want to try it, see if it makes you feel you can then your life around.

Look up "candida" and that will explain to you what most people today probably are suffering from. And why changing diet matters.

Or be like I was years ago. Lazy, complacent in your habits. You've seen how dark life can get, going to prison. Let there be light! Make your suffering not something that was in vain. I won't bother you about this, this is the only replky I'm putting, so it is up to you. But I just hope you get where I'm coming from because I wrote this because I care and don't want to see you make the same mistakes so many people do.

Good luck! Have a magical day.