I'm angry at my flatmate.

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I am sharing the flat with another girl - we have separate rooms but share kitchen and bathroom.

I returned from my part time job now, hangry (hungry+angry) and proceeded with making myself some dinner while she was busy cleaning the restroom. And she brought me a f**nig, dirty sponge that was behind the washing machine,a asking me if I am using it and when I said to throw it away she said to "Throw away things I don't use". I am using everything I keep in the bathroom and there isn't even that many of my stuff! She keeps 3x more stuff there and I bet she doesn't use a half of them!

Then she asked me "When are you going to clean the kitchen, today or tomorrow?" and I am too damn tired and angry and hungry to think about cleaning right now and I don't even consider the kitchen dirty right now (all I need to do is clean the stove and the counters out of stuff SHE spilled because I always wipe the things I spill right away, at least from the counters because stove can be too hot to do that, I agree about the stove because it does require cleaning but I did wipe the counters yesterday!). And if I have the choice I would rather clean the kitchen in the Monday when she is working because I am worried she is going co complain about my cleaning method - I don't use the chemicals she uses because they smell and they are bad for my hands - I use vinegar or dishwashing liquid.

I am also constantly throwing away the trash she leaves on counters or washing machine, without criticizing. It's one simple move - take the trash and put it into trash bin 50cms away.
Yesterday I found a mold in a pot she left on stove - I left it as it was for her to see and clean because while I do clean some stuff she leaves in the sink or on the counter (I can't use the sink or counter when it's full and it doesn't hurt me to clean 3 more dishes and 2 cups) I am not going to deal with damn mold. She was also keeping 20! empty beer bottles on the counter for 5 months (I didn't throw them away because I assumed she is collecting them for "return" -some people do that, it's 0,40PLN per bottle), put them under sink during kitchen renovation and only threw then away 2 months alter, after I asked her "Will you throw away the bottles from under sink?". And even then she ended up putting them into a plastic bag on floor and leaving them in the middle of kitchen together with 4 other plastic bags full of trash and leaving it there for the whole day. When I returned home the floor was full of some liquid and I had to throw away the bags and wipe the floor because I was afraid it might stain the new floor (AND SHE HERSELF COMPLAINED ABOUT ME LEAVING A TRASH BAG ON FLOOR AND SPILLING SOMETHING 3 WEEKS EARLIER, BACK WHEN WE STILL HAD THE OLD, DIRTY FLOOR). I only left the bottles - putting the whole bag into a cardbox she left on the floor next to the trash.

And there she is - cleaning behind the washing machine we never move anyway and complaining about a damn sponge she found there! And expecting me to clean the kitchen while in my impression it was clean yesterday! What is she expecting me to do? Maybe move the refrigerator and clean behind it using some smelly chemicals? No way! If she is so obsessed with clean corners she can do it herself. I only clean corners during renovation or rearranging - it makes no sense to clean places you don't use and don't look into.

I am sick of it. I don't want to deal with humans anymore! I want to live on my own! But I can't because I don't have money to rent a single flat.

I am wondering how to tell her to stop criticising me and look at her own faults. But I don't want her to hate me because I am renting the room from her (well, her mother to be specific but she is the medium, I don't even have contact info to the mom) and I am afraid she would throw me out.

Edit.
She went out the house, I started cleaning the kitchen.
She returned. I saw a fresh stain of the stove I just cleaned (probably got there when I was putting wet parts back together) and said to myself, surprised: "What?! I just cleaned that. Why is there a new stain?"<wiping>.
She said "Then you should have cleaned properly."
"What - am I - doing - wrong - now?" - I asked her, angry.
"Clean so it is clean". - she answered.
I threw the rag and left the room.
I can't clean. I am a worthless human being.

I have a person I live next to that clogs the toilet and I find it very frustraitng.

You are just going to have to put up with your room mate. Try not to let her get to you. The things shes doing you described dont seem that bad. Ive heard worse. Try to cope with it.

Maybe try to calmly talk to her about what is bothering you.

I got enough.
The flatmate is moving out in 2 months and her mother is moving in instead. Flatmate said her mother is so much worse "you can't even imagine".

I need to look for another place. If the mother is indeed such of a clean freak I am going to commit suicide if I am forced to live with her. I got enough of family abuse back at home for strangers to abuse me too. There is a lot of places to rent so its not like I have to live with people who are nuts.

The problem is I am terrified of moving (changes always make me freak out), I will have to ask some social workers to help me find a place and deal with the paperwork and worst of that all - I don't know if i will get along with new flatmates.
But I doubt it can be any worse. I consider myself a good flatmate (I clean after myself right away, don't keep many stuff in shared areas and I take short showers) so she is the one with problems. She has no right to force me to clean the place. So far I am paying her for my room so if anyone at all then she is the one supposed to keep it clean. If she can't do that it's her problem - I don't need it sparkly clean so I am not going to deal with her undiagnosed OCD.

But I am still preparing to move out. I don't want to deal with toxic people. I need to take care of my mental health.

Maybe I will be able to find a single flat I can afford - my disability pension is apparently getting a raise (745->878PLN) starting next month so it migth be possible if I look hard enough. Perhaps my mom will help me too. She wasn't that generous a year ago, when I was moving out from family home with just 720PLN/month retirement pension (she refused to add 100PLN/month to it although she did say she will give me money if I don't have money for food) but when I called her yesterday during a meltdown she offered taking a loan and buying a flat for me, which I refused of course - but she might be ok. giving me 200-300PLN more a month now so I could be able to find a flat almost twice as expensive as the one I am renting now, assuming I can afford food with my part time jobs that come and go and only give about 200PLN/month.

Well it seems like you have figured out what to do. Good luck.

However it is causing me to meltdown/shutdown/getting suicidal. At the very moment is 5th time I experience mental breakdown within 40 hours. I am trying hard not to cry rithg now because I have important stuff to do in the afternoon (I have to pay a big fee if I cancel) and I just can't let myself break before I finish them. I am not sure I can do it.

Yesterday I went on a 10 minutes walk hoping it will clear my mind and it took me 40 mins to go back home the same day - I collapsed 6 times and couldn't stand up for minutes, crying and feeling angry and helpless.

Who is she to order me around and to complain "You see nothing but your computer and your paper wickers!"?! I moved out from family home because dad used to complain about my special interests and force me to clean the house instead so WHY do I have to experience it when I moved out and am paying for a room? Not their business what I do in my free time! I pay the bills and keep the shared area relatively clean so they have no right to criticize me! Especially since they know I am autistic! It's abusing a disabled person for their disability! I should sue them!