Having a good relationship is one of the joys of life. I don't think we want to deny that.
I actually think you could make a very good partner one day, Marknis. You are sensitive and principled. Honest to God, a lot of women would love that in a mate.
I would like to see you improve your general mental health and I'll bet that then, you could find a relationship. Look around, quite a few members of WrongPlanet do in fact have a love relationship even though their lives did not turn out the way they hoped in other regards.
The thing is, to move forward, you'll have to do some difficult things - try some things that are new for you. I hope you do try - things like changing jobs, getting out of your parents home, leave the Bible Belt, etc. I also hope you don't see me as one of your detractors. Good luck to you.
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