01 Dec 2018, 10:20 pm
I did something I knew I wasn't going to enjoy but I did it anyway because I hate my social isolation. I went down to the "pub" (In reality a sport's bar trying to pose as an Irish pub) downtown even though I've been to it a few times before and each endeavor was unproductive. It just seems to be the primary night life destination of my area.
Like my previous attempts, I saw that everyone else had company but me. There were two girls talking to each other at the bar and I thought of talking to them but I was immediately anxious because they were heavily in their conversation and I remember the last time I tried talking to girls at this place didn't work out so well so I was fearing history repeating itself. I was told by the bartender I needed to buy something if I wanted to stay so I left.
I hate that Aspergers has caused me to struggle socially and to fall behind so far. I already see the coming year beginning with me still being depressed that I don't have a girlfriend and missing the college registrations. 
01 Dec 2018, 10:24 pm
01 Dec 2018, 10:31 pm
Like my previous attempts, I saw that everyone else had company but me. There were two girls talking to each other at the bar and I thought of talking to them but I was immediately anxious because they were heavily in their conversation and I remember the last time I tried talking to girls at this place didn't work out so well so I was fearing history repeating itself. I was told by the bartender I needed to buy something if I wanted to stay so I left.
I hate that Aspergers has caused me to struggle socially and to fall behind so far. I already see the coming year beginning with me still being depressed that I don't have a girlfriend and missing the college registrations.
Have you decided what you would take at college? I’ve never been. I’d like to, but I don’t know what I might want to take- practical courses or personal interest courses.
02 Dec 2018, 1:43 am
Like my previous attempts, I saw that everyone else had company but me. There were two girls talking to each other at the bar and I thought of talking to them but I was immediately anxious because they were heavily in their conversation and I remember the last time I tried talking to girls at this place didn't work out so well so I was fearing history repeating itself. I was told by the bartender I needed to buy something if I wanted to stay so I left.
I hate that Aspergers has caused me to struggle socially and to fall behind so far. I already see the coming year beginning with me still being depressed that I don't have a girlfriend and missing the college registrations.
Have you decided what you would take at college? I’ve never been. I’d like to, but I don’t know what I might want to take- practical courses or personal interest courses.
I am undecided and I don't know if I'll ever truly go back. I've gone before but I've never achieved a degree because I got both academically and socially frustrated. My work schedule limits the amount of courses I can take per semester and the number of courses required for even an associate's degree is dauntingly high. I also was disappointed by the social scene. It wasn't like Animal House or Back to School which is what I was told it would be like.
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No kidding!
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