i am fighting off that stuff every time i need to get my food. thankfully, local food store isnt really big, and i can be there among like 5 other ppl, if time chosen right. and they dont have that nightmare jingle stuff. going anywhere NEAR a real big store with crowds and jingles can get me melted before i get there. i run from there like its plague at my heels. used to be more reselient when younger, but now i just cant stand it. what im trying to say, i absolutely relate. u had a horrible experience. and being ill that long (also related, happens to me), really sucks. and ya, my house is a mess too. take it easy, okay? i understand there might not be smaller store nearby, plus smaller means more expensive, usually, which is why u have to go to big one. for me it is easier if i am not alone, but with another ADULT person. i can just well, disconnect from it and be taken care of in this enviroment. i know it could not be an option, or not help u. being there alone is a nightmare. i very much feel for u on this. please take this easy, and allow urself a rest now. u need it.
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sanity is a prison. insanity is doom. is there a third option, please?
beware the ire of the patient ones!
and if i walk away, who is gonna stay? i believe to make the world be a better place.