A few days ago, my husband got upset because his sister is receiving more attention from his parents than him. I took it upon myself to text her and call her an attention whore. Now she may have filed charges against me, and the only reason why they dropped was because I can't drive, and now I am not allowed to speak to her.
I am not a bad person, I just got upset because my husband was upset. I hate what this is doing to me. I bought presents for her that will probably be left unopened. I am already considering cancelling Christmas altogether because of it.
I f*****g hate living in Ohio, most everyone is a Trump whore, and due to my husband's probation, I am not allowed to leave this shitfest of a state. Meanwhile, one lucky member here has terminal cancer, why the f**k couldn't that be me!? After all, I did a bunch of bad things in my life, and now I am even more desperate to die. I just won't be happy until my sister-in-law forgives me, which is never.
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Black cat on duty