Short term memory issues and lack of life narrative

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Wondering if others here have this problem and can shed some light in it.

Do any of you have this problem where, you seem to largely lose track of the events of day, the present moment, and the time, and you just seem to lie in your bed or sit down, and the world around you just passes by, and before you know it that day is like, over? Odd I know but I’d hope people here would understand.

Hard to describe really, but if you’ve watched the video Numb by Linkin Park, that scene where the girl is sitting in class and the world just passes around her and she’s still sitting there... it’s almost like that, but it’s not depression, although then again I’m sure you could see how this feeling if meaninglessness could led to a sort of depression.

I also have no life narrative because of my identity disturbance, sometimes I just sit there self-absorbed in my own thoughts all day. I also feel I may be some sort of ‘covert’ narcissist or something (related to asd?) and I have this thing where I will forget about the existence of my family members when they are not around me, even when they are home with me, weird or what. It also sometimes feels like I’m alone in the world, and even though I obviously care for them deeply I still don’t feel part of a family because of this identity disturbance, if you get me? People also say I look lost a lot of the time. I though maybe I had some form of psychosis at one point, but it thinking about it I’ve been like this for as long as I can remember.

Does anyone have this issue?

yes and no. some parts do pass, some parts dont. both hurt.

Yeah but I wasn't able to articulate it that well.

I guy I know can just recite anecdotes all day to people, and it's just beyond me. Therefor, I don't bother forcing myself and just do what I do. If I can tell a story when it comes to me, then I do, but I don't "fish" for one internally just to make others comfortable, because that just makes it worse.

Being able to maintain some sort of consistent narrative has gotten easier as I have aged so, once you build real life experience as an adult and are less controlled by hormones and a still developing pre-frontal cortex, things should get smoother (hopefully)

...?!

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