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25 Apr 2019, 4:21 am

I deleted my post, about 9 people read it but I had to delete it. I've deleted a lot of posts today.

Not sure what to do, I can't describe the feeling as anything other than being unhappy.



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25 Apr 2019, 4:31 am

Burnout?
Your needs finally surfaced?
How about a hug? When I can't connect to people, feeling the touch of them helps.
(((wrongcitizen)))
I know it's not real connection but I can't provide any better.


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25 Apr 2019, 4:45 am

magz wrote:
Burnout?
Your needs finally surfaced?
How about a hug? When I can't connect to people, feeling the touch of them helps.
(((wrongcitizen)))
I know it's not real connection but I can't provide any better.


I had to edit again. I'm very grateful that you read it. My life feels very limited.



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25 Apr 2019, 4:50 am

hey. look at me. this happens. i know that feeling. those hungry shadows take a LOT of fire to fight off, and they allways return. this usually indicates ur mind stumbling on some old emotional trauma that was not resolved/healed. and sometimes u cant remember what it was, so u feel "phantom" pain, that actually has a solid, even if invisible, reason. u need to try to remember. to find the sourse. there allways is something. if u look into the shadows long enough u'll see what casts them. im sorry, i really should have more sleep to be more eligible. my ability to form text is currently hindered. i want to help.

feeling of empty, feeling of fake, it quite fits in derealization pattern. also, emotions during depression can be too much. and too much negative, yes. depression doesnt equal freeze. tho usually freeze happens after too much emotion deployed.


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25 Apr 2019, 4:51 am

wrongcitizen wrote:
My emotions are overpowering, unlike usual bouts of depression.

Anger?

When my 23 years of supressing anger finally broke out, it was quite a catastrophe.


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25 Apr 2019, 5:15 am

I appreciate your responses a lot.

The confusing emotion is frustration. It's the same feeling when someone loses a competition or gets into a losing argument.

I feel hollow at the same time. I want to do things, but everything is so formulaic, all planned. I feel trapped by and stagnated, especially regarding the direction of my life.



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25 Apr 2019, 5:36 am

been there, had that, got a tshirt. u dont need to explain frustration, it is very familliar to me. what u have to do is follow the line and find the roots. ofc i could be wrong, i could be projecting, but i think there is a deep reason u just need to find


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