It feels as though my life is unraveling.
My father died in late February. Two months back, my mother and I relocated to my sister's place several states north. At the time my mother made the decision, I thought it was ill advised - my eldest sister had built on to her house so we could move there, but my mother changed her mind shortly after my father passed, feeling that the region was too cold. Still, I prefer where my youngest sister lives, it is a climate that I am far better suited for.
And all of that is now about to unravel.
My mother has been extremely unhappy since we arrived. The place is a mess, and has been for at least five years when my sister lost her husband. This is why I thought that this move was ill advised, as I knew that no matter what, my mother, who I am convinced has undiagnosed OCD, was going to have problems.
Now, my mother is looking for an apartment and plans on moving out.
This is where I should mention I'm disabled and have a fixed income.
I'm worried sick. My mother is rather elderly, and relies so much on others to do things for her. She has been floating aid to my sister, something that will have to end if she gets a place. I've been paying the electric, cable, and internet, plus helping with groceries, as well as helping with other finances with my tiny little income. My sister, I might add, is currently out of work and just a couple of steps ahead of financial ruin (losing the house!).
As I feared when the decision was made, this is going to end poorly. And I am a total wreck.
Going to try for sleep once again...
02 Aug 2019, 12:58 am
