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28 Oct 2019, 4:56 pm

I hate my life, I still have my new mattress, box spring & headboard still in boxes, I’m sleeping on my couch, I’m soooo hate living here, I feel like I have no help. I have sooo much trouble walking, I feel like I’m failing. I have a boyfriend who loves me & makes me sooo happy & I’m still depressed.

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28 Oct 2019, 5:02 pm

Hugs

I feel same but I’ve got no one and never will:(

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28 Oct 2019, 11:44 pm

sly279 wrote:

Hugs

I feel same but I’ve got no one and never will:(

Hug to you too

Don’t give up, you will find someone.

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30 Oct 2019, 5:41 am

I know EXACTLY how you feel.
I'm in a stress-free job, and I have a loving boyfriend who I live with, and I still feel depressed.

OK I'm satisfied with my life but I just feel depressed being me. I hate my AS, and I constantly beat myself up about it.

If you ever need to talk you can PM me, or if you're not one for PMs then you can talk in this thread and hopefully others will relate to our emotional pain.

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30 Oct 2019, 6:28 am

i am reminded of something joan baez said, "the antidote to despair, is action."

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30 Oct 2019, 7:09 am

I have trouble walking too. Not the mechanics of it, I've got that part down. But, I fall down a lot. Lately it's been 1-2 x each month. And these are really hard falls, from not paying attention. I haven't broken anything recently though, I have broken things in the past. So, at least that's good.

I'm sorry you are depressed. That really sucks, especially if you are medicated and feel like you are doing everything possible.

I do agree with auntblabby, I've always heard, "move a muscle, change a thought." And if you change a thought, you can change the feeling associated with the thought.

Feel better soon, {{{{ hugs }}}} :heart:

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30 Oct 2019, 10:51 pm

Persephone29 wrote:

I’m clumsy, I can easily fall down. Last year I broke my ankle & dislocated it too, it healed, but my bones didn’t healed right, my other leg have sooo much pain too. I have a wheelchair & a walker, I been struck in apartment for many months.

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30 Oct 2019, 11:02 pm

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Thanks, I might just PM you. I guess when people are happy & still get depressed, it maybe the Aspergers fault, I hate Aspie too, I get way too many anxiety. I used to beat myself up, thinking I’m no good, I don’t deserve to be happy, nobody will want me & I wish I wasn’t born.

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30 Oct 2019, 11:14 pm

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do you have access to physical therapy?

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01 Nov 2019, 1:24 pm

Kitty4670 wrote:

Joe90 wrote:

Please hang in there ! Recognize most of those feelings,
But not good at knowin aspieism so well , can see it , recognize some of cause and effect. But as like the forest from the trees analogy . Its easier being a tree , when your amongst other trees? But if you don-t recognize that you are a tree,
Discerning stuff can get hard . And btw , what are these root thingys for ?

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01 Nov 2019, 1:35 pm

Uhm.. yes , hates to use the word clumsy , when am perfectly aware , it seem to be miscommunication in the synapses .. And is very frustrating .. fairly unpredictable.
And i think a common thing is alot of aspies ..broke 2 fingers in 2 months . Emergency. Looked at me very oddly. These are most recent actual bone breaks . Yes on falling down ..but learning to fall, along time ago helped that. So not so severe. Think , Tubthumper , " i get knocked down ,but i get up again" never gonna keep me down "
Just sometimes takes longer to be interested in getting up. Am outta my wherlchair and walker long ago , but do keep the cane handy, No bf , live alone,aswell. please take care!

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01 Nov 2019, 6:38 pm

Kitty4670 wrote:

sly279 wrote:

Hugs

I feel same but I’ve got no one and never will:(

Hug to you too

Don’t give up, you will find someone.

Nope. It’s too late for me.

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