The last time i had a friend was the beginning of high school. I always had aspergers and social anxiety, but now i lost all of my confidence and desire to live. So its impossible for me to make any friends or human contact at this time. Who wants a depressed lonely and awkward one around them? I have zero motivation to do anything. Life is meaningless. This is not a temporary situation and everything will stay the same. I dont know what i can do in the next 60 years? Sitting at home without human contact for 60 years? Sounds terrible but its my future life if a miracle doesn't happen. My english may be bad, i hope you understand me.