I Have Done All I Can for My Dearly Beloved Cat

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09 Nov 2019, 9:39 pm

And it hasn't been enough to cure him or maintain a reasonable quality of life. Later today I am going to send him across the Rainbow Bridge, where I hope my previous cat will still be to take him under his care.

I have done everything possible in co-operation with his vet and it hasn't been enough to cure him or relieve his suffering very much. He is now drugged up with opiates and steroids, but he is still suffering, so I have to let him go.

Knowing he is my last ever cat companion makes it harder.

I know that euthanasia is the most humane action now, though I still feel I have failed him, even though I have done everything it was possible to do, made full use of veterinary care and help. Yet I still feel responsible for this final outcome.

Nips came to me 5 years ago as a terrified senior stray cat who had never known human love. For five years to the day I have tried to make up to him for everything that went before he was rescued.

It took a long time to gain his trust and quell his fear of humans, but we got there, so he experienced mutual trust and love despite his unimaginable past of deprivation and abuse.

I feel as if my heart has cracked into pieces. I must let him cross the rainbow bridge now, where I hope my wonderful previous cat Mr Orange is waiting for him, crazy though that the might seem.

Nips will die at least knowing he was loved to the end.

It is very hard to ask for a beloved animal's life to be ended, but I cannot bear to see him suffering beyond today.

Please don't sent me PMs with problem issues for a while, I need time to grieve without further stress.

He is the last loved companion in my life, I won't be replacing him. I may foster kittens for the SPCA in time, when I have recovered from the deep grief of his life's end. It feels like my heart has been put through a meat mincer, so please don't post anything insensitive or cruel.



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09 Nov 2019, 9:45 pm

At least he knows he was loved, and that he will not go in pain.



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09 Nov 2019, 9:52 pm

You've done everything you can, including now, letting him go. He will live on in your heart.


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10 Nov 2019, 2:41 am

Thank you.

He has now crossed the Rainbow Bridge, and was wrapped in love and peaceful in his last hour.



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10 Nov 2019, 2:53 am

I am so sorry. I lost my Miniature Pinscher Benji in May, so I know how it feels. The grief stays and there's always a missing spot because he was so full of life. It's how he was treated for these glorious five years that counts. He was truly loved so remember the good times and sweet, irreplaceable memories. You did all you could.

Hugs to you at this tough time. He will stay with you in spirit.


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10 Nov 2019, 2:55 am

Nips was lucky to meet an owner like you



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10 Nov 2019, 3:07 am

That's so sad :cry: Please accept my heartfelt condolences. I think he had a good life. It's a good thing you found each other. You were lucky to share your time on earth together.


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10 Nov 2019, 9:53 am

He was lucky to have you. Have a good cry if you can. You will feel better. He is going to a better place.



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10 Nov 2019, 12:10 pm

My condolences to you. It’s good that you were able to be with him.



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10 Nov 2019, 12:14 pm

My condolences go out to you, B19, on the loss of your cat. He is now in a much better place. It is hard right now, but please know that he is always alive in your memories of him.



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10 Nov 2019, 12:16 pm

This is always so hard, my heart goes to you. I'm glad your kitty had a good life and a lot of love.

Take care B19 and be kind to yourself.


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10 Nov 2019, 4:35 pm

So very sorry. :heart:


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10 Nov 2019, 5:16 pm

Hugs B19. I know what it is to rescue and give your heart to a cat till the end. You gave your all, and both Nips and Mr Orange were soo fortunate to have had you! You gave them love ... and a far better life than they would have had, elsewhere from the sounds of it. Take comfort in that, and the happy memories... as time goes on. x



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10 Nov 2019, 5:31 pm

So sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself.



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10 Nov 2019, 5:51 pm

I am so sorry about Nips, B19. I love that you gave an older cat a safe comfortable home where he knew love and compassion.
You will be in my thoughts, :heart:



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10 Nov 2019, 6:05 pm

It takes a special heart to adopt a senior cat.
It takes a special heart to adopt a troubled cat.
It takes an extra special heart to take the time to earn the cat's trust and show them a full and happy life of trust, love, comfort, and warmth.
Your kitty already found heaven when they were adopted by you.
Now they don't have to suffer anymore.
You gave your kitty a beautiful gift.
It can be hard letting go.
But don't let that stop you from showing that same love to other critters in need.
In the long run, it's worth it.
The world would be a better place if more people cared like you do.