Lost a month of life after TMS treatment refusal

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31 Jan 2020, 9:34 pm

I waited a whole month to get a TMS treatment since the depression I suffer from is resistant to anti-depressant medication. However, even after talking about my depression and why it keeps lasting, the medical clinic did a 180 on me and told me I needed to try yet another medication to see if it doesn’t work before I can receive the TMS treatment. I’ve taken so many anti-depressants and they don’t help me so why isn’t that enough for them? I put off so many things in hopes TMS would help me start over and this clinic always has made me wait months between appointments.



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01 Feb 2020, 6:38 am

I don't know what that treatment is like, but if it has high risks or is very expensive, it makes sense to try other things first. And even if it didn't, if it's a rule that all the pills must be tried before one gets that treatment, then it's not really your doctor's fault as he or she is just following the rules. Either way, the negativity won't help you, that's for sure. Try out that new medication and see if it works.



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01 Feb 2020, 2:54 pm

That really sucks and is not fair. Just try the stupid medication and then ask to try the treatment again. Don't give up.



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01 Feb 2020, 4:08 pm

I'm very sorry to hear this. I know this is a setback, but I really hope that once you've tried this medication, if it also doesn't help, that then you can get the TMS. I'm sorry you're having to go through this, I hope you eventually get to have the TMS and that it turns out to be worth the wait.


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02 Feb 2020, 9:51 pm

I tried the medicine and it made my body feel tired even after sleeping. I didn’t even try a full pill and the sedation lasted almost the whole day.



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02 Feb 2020, 10:09 pm

Marknis wrote:
I tried the medicine and it made my body feel tired even after sleeping. I didn’t even try a full pill and the sedation lasted almost the whole day.


I experienced the same thing when I took Remeron. I was in high school at the time, and I just could not stay awake through my classes no matter how hard I tried, it made me so tired.


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02 Feb 2020, 10:37 pm

dragonsanddemons wrote:
Marknis wrote:
I tried the medicine and it made my body feel tired even after sleeping. I didn’t even try a full pill and the sedation lasted almost the whole day.


I experienced the same thing when I took Remeron. I was in high school at the time, and I just could not stay awake through my classes no matter how hard I tried, it made me so tired.


Did your teachers give you flack? I am pretty sure the higher ranking people I have to be around where I work would treat me badly if I went to work on the Remeron.

I thought maybe I would finally be on the path to getting a girlfriend if the TMS helped me. Now I am looking at another year going by with me still being single. I really feel like the universe doesn’t want me to have a girlfriend.



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02 Feb 2020, 10:53 pm

Marknis wrote:
dragonsanddemons wrote:
Marknis wrote:
I tried the medicine and it made my body feel tired even after sleeping. I didn’t even try a full pill and the sedation lasted almost the whole day.


I experienced the same thing when I took Remeron. I was in high school at the time, and I just could not stay awake through my classes no matter how hard I tried, it made me so tired.


Did your teachers give you flack? I am pretty sure the higher ranking people I have to be around where I work would treat me badly if I went to work on the Remeron.

I thought maybe I would finally be on the path to getting a girlfriend if the TMS helped me. Now I am looking at another year going by with me still being single. I really feel like the universe doesn’t want me to have a girlfriend.


I don't recall my teachers saying anything, but I don't have very good memory of that time period because I was just in kind of a fog the whole time. I do remember another student poking me because they'd noticed I was falling asleep, but that's it. I was generally a good student and got good grades, so they may have let it slide because of that. Either that, or I just got really lucky.


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03 Feb 2020, 12:01 am

I have the same issue with Remeron when I first take it. But my experience also is that effect goes away when my body adjusts to the medicine.

Caffeine helps with the grogginess.



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03 Feb 2020, 12:20 am

caffeine in itself can also help with some depressive symptoms, at least in my own experience, YMMV. [frontal lobe stimulant]



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03 Feb 2020, 11:00 am

The fact I still see the “bad boys” getting girlfriends makes me feel discouraged about my future. It also feels like women my age are all coupled up and don’t want male friends unless that male friend is coupled up himself.



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04 Feb 2020, 1:30 am

I'm sorry that your TMS treatment was delayed. It was pretty crappy of them to have you anticipating the treatment, only to change the story just before you were meant to have it.

Personally, using psychotropic medication as a solution for someone who's depressed that they can't get a girlfriend has never made sense to me. Why would that work if a principal cause of the depression still lingers? I'd have similar questions about the TMS, but Im less familiar with it. The only way either could really help is if it helped you get into the right state to fix everything you need to fix in order to become an appealing romantic prospect to women.



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04 Feb 2020, 4:28 pm

I saw the psychiatrist again and told her the remeron made me feel sedated but she still wants me to try it. I don’t know if I will ever get the TMS re-scheduled.

I hoped the TMS would help with my neural pathways. I sometimes fear my brain can’t undergo neuroplasticity and that’s why I still get anxious asking women out while always fearing they will say “No”.