Can someone hug me?

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I used to cope with life by dissociating with my feelings and doing whatever I found logical.
It massively collapsed a few years ago when I had to care for two little daughters.
I've been in therapy since then and I learned to recognize my own feelings.
Now my Aspie daughter is at school and I relive my old traumas, this time without dissociation to numb it.
I'm a wreck now but I want to make a difference for my daughter.
I... need some support.

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But of course I'll hug you!

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Hugs yesterday, today, and as long as you need!

Bear hugs for you magz

Train hugs from me.

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You're a good mom!

Sending you big dragon hugs.

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Massive hugs, Magz.

Massive hugs, Magz.

... looks like two lots of massive hugs then!

Giving you great big hugs magz.

Thank you all!
It's so hard now, I had no idea how deep my traumas were. There was seemingly nothing out of ordinary about my childhood except that... except that I'm a handbook CPTSD example. And now I need to confront all my traumas because of my daughters.
But what to do with my daughter? I got her assessed and diagnosed to get some support I had no idea I could ever have. She has been refusing to write in her notebook and the whole class and the teacher yelled at her to write - I can understand she couldn't work like that. After the assessment she got a support teacher... the support teacher tries to make some system of rewards which M just does not care for. M says the teacher is not really better than the class was before. And when I ask why she doesn't write, she says it's too boring.
I don't know. The support teacher and my husband believe we should construct some system of discipline for her - maybe they are right but I just can't do it, I have such a strong, visceral reaction against the very thought.
I'm overwhelmed. And my stomach aches.

Sending lots of hugs to Magz (()).
You dont have to get things perfect with your daughter, isnt it a learning curve, or supposed to be ? Children can be quite resilient.
For her work, it's better for her long term to experience completing it through internal motivation, than through external discipline, a more positive association is better for learning.
Yet knowing how to work alongside someone on a mundane task could be crucial in supporting later independent living. That's what I would focus on.

I'm glad for you that you have a name for the fears woven into your past, (not that these things happened, but) that you are a step closer to being a more authentic you.

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Millions of warm hugs for magz.

My 2 cents on your daughter: I remember being forced to do stupid things. In my case, it was exercise worksheets that had to be colored in addition to doing the actual work, whatever that was. I refused to do the coloring. The teacher made me, so I scribbled a purple crayon over the whole thing. Well I got a talking to at home on that one.

My inclination would be to let her do the things that interest her, at school. And not worry about the things she doesn't want to do. There's enough time in this life for her to learn about boredom and drudgery.