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redchidragon
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01 Apr 2020, 2:18 pm

With Aspergers, PTSD, and an array of other issues I made bad choices that has made me ill. I'm not terminal but I'm close. I have an STD that will eventually kill me when my immune system shuts down. Should keep living life as normal or be prepared for death?



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01 Apr 2020, 2:46 pm

I suspect that you may need to prepare for death in order to go on living...
...but I don’t think I have enough life experience to be taken seriously on this one.

I feel deeply sad for you, but don’t know how to put it into a neat phrase :heart:



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01 Apr 2020, 2:53 pm

First, best wishes and thought for you as a fellow ASD, CPTSD sufferer :heart:

I've been suicidal for a long stretch of my life, to the point where I made sure I could (efficiently) end my life whenever I wanted. That's when I started living.

You never know how things will turn out, try to make the best of it, as if you had nothing to lose.


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01 Apr 2020, 4:37 pm

redchidragon wrote:
With Aspergers, PTSD, and an array of other issues I made bad choices that has made me ill. I'm not terminal but I'm close. I have an STD that will eventually kill me when my immune system shuts down. Should keep living life as normal or be prepared for death?


We all die, so living life as normal should include at least a degree of being prepared for death.

I don't know if you're implying actually taking measures to ensure death, but if that's on your mind it's always something you can procrastinate on. If you're worried time might be short anyways, why not do something to create a legacy while you still have the time to do so? Everyone has stories to tell, and telling them might help deal with some of the emotions connected to them.

Try to live 'as normal'; if preparing for death is part of, or becomes part of 'as normal' you'll still be living 'as normal'.
Obviously the situation you describe is stressful, if preparing for death helps with stress management it's probably not a bad thing so long as the preparation isn't intended to get you closer to that point.


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01 Apr 2020, 6:00 pm

The pop artist Ke$ha would say for you to make the most of your life like your gonna die young. & Tim McGraw would say to live like you were dying.





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