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la_fenkis
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14 Mar 2020, 9:41 pm

I haven't posted in a while and after this I can't imagine I will again. I don't know why I came here in the first place. Something about community and not feeling alone. Whatever it was it didn't happen. I felt as understood and accepted here as I did anywhere else, which is to say, not much. I could try to give a long winded explanation but it feels like it would serve no purpose, and I wouldn't be here to help elaborate if it went understood.

The games were fun. The conversation was utter crap. Goodbye.

I wish well to those that were nice to me.



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14 Mar 2020, 9:52 pm

((( fenkis ))) Please stay.


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14 Mar 2020, 10:38 pm

fenkis...... there are few enough of people , who are kind enoughto post opinions here.
Stay please , ......


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14 Mar 2020, 11:38 pm

(((Everyone)))

I'm sorry, I'm going. Heck, I've been gone for a month now. A few people here have been kind to me and it's meant a lot. But, despite that, I've grown to have significant negative feelings towards this place and numerous people in it and I don't want to be here anymore. I've attempted taking my guard down a couple times and letting people get to know me a bit but it hasn't worked out well at all. The only times I come here anymore are when I'm drunk. it seems to propell me past the reticence that's grown up around the idea of interacting here (and most other places really). I'd explain further but I'd rather not open myself up to further criticism that way. My reasons are good enough for me and that's all that matters.

Anyways, goodbye. I wish you all the best.



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15 Mar 2020, 8:24 am

la_fenkis wrote:
(((Everyone)))

I'm sorry, I'm going. Heck, I've been gone for a month now. A few people here have been kind to me and it's meant a lot. But, despite that, I've grown to have significant negative feelings towards this place and numerous people in it and I don't want to be here anymore. I've attempted taking my guard down a couple times and letting people get to know me a bit but it hasn't worked out well at all. The only times I come here anymore are when I'm drunk. it seems to propell me past the reticence that's grown up around the idea of interacting here (and most other places really). I'd explain further but I'd rather not open myself up to further criticism that way. My reasons are good enough for me and that's all that matters.

Anyways, goodbye. I wish you all the best.


Thank You.

Understand it can take a glass or two just to open up at all , on some days.
best wishes on wherever you go from here ,, or even if you decide to come and visit here again someday, sometimes . :|


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15 Mar 2020, 10:04 am

Best wishes for you. I regret you have not gotten a feeling of community. I struggle on and off with that as well, but I hang in because it is the first place in my life where I have felt not weird. I think aspies in general have a difficult time feeling accepted and attacks from others can seem overwhelming. I pretty much ignore the people who feel they must always attack and feint. But I understand the need to withdraw. Good luck.


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16 Mar 2020, 8:11 pm

I've not been posting here that long and begininng to feel the same way about this place.

Wish you all the best.


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27 May 2020, 1:02 am

Just wanted to pop back in two months on to let anyone who was concerned upon my departure know that I'm doing better. I'm not coming back here or anything, just wanted to say things seem to have worked out and the future seems relatively ok. Thanks to those here that have offered me help and kindness, you're precious souls.

Anyways, blessings and peace.



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27 May 2020, 1:05 am

la_fenkis wrote:
Just wanted to pop back in two months on to let anyone who was concerned upon my departure know that I'm doing better. I'm not coming back here or anything, just wanted to say things seem to have worked out and the future seems relatively ok. Thanks to those here that have offered me help and kindness, you're precious souls.

Anyways, blessings and peace.

live long and prosper. :alien:



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27 May 2020, 1:12 am

auntblabby wrote:
la_fenkis wrote:
Just wanted to pop back in two months on to let anyone who was concerned upon my departure know that I'm doing better. I'm not coming back here or anything, just wanted to say things seem to have worked out and the future seems relatively ok. Thanks to those here that have offered me help and kindness, you're precious souls.

Anyways, blessings and peace.

live long and prosper. :alien:

:albino: :flower: :cat: I'm glad you're doing well fenkis! Come back and play with us any time!


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30 May 2020, 8:41 pm

la_fenkis wrote:
Just wanted to pop back in two months on to let anyone who was concerned upon my departure know that I'm doing better. I'm not coming back here or anything, just wanted to say things seem to have worked out and the future seems relatively ok. Thanks to those here that have offered me help and kindness, you're precious souls.

Anyways, blessings and peace.


I’m glad you are well. :heart:


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30 May 2020, 8:55 pm

Quite understandable. Glad you are doing really well out there.


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31 May 2020, 9:47 am

I understand your struggle. Je suis passé par là.

A suggestion, is to start a blog. You write about what interest you, and the people who will read you could add comments about what your articles talk about. And a blog is more permanent that a forum. So you write your articles, and each article add to the value of your blog, with the possibility to raise the attention others may give to your articles.

I registered in 2012, there was lapses of years between some of my posts.



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01 Jun 2020, 1:20 pm

just wanted to wish you well whenever you do decide to pop in just btw .


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