Tired of this never ending cycle

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Since April, my work schedule has been the same. I work monday-thursday evenings and saturday evenings. Nothing special has been going on in my life and idk if it would be any different without the pandemic. On my days off I have nothing to do except got get pizza and watch some show. I've just been feeling "dull" a lot and I don't have much motivation. Whenever I've hung out with a friend in previous months even that has felt dull. I think that the last exciting thing to happen in my life was when I went on a couple of dates with a girl back in february before that flamed out. I haven't gotten anywhere past texting for a brief period of time with anyone since.

Having said that, I guess the top things that would bring excitement to my life are getting into a relationship with a woman and finding a not so mundane job.

Damn, my mind is so consumed with wanting to find a woman. Seems as if my brain is wired to have seeking a mate as my only purpose in life.

I feel depressed inside as I'm typing this. It's gonna be the same ol' thing for me for the next while.

Testosterone levels are at their peak, at your age.
Nature is messing with your mind.

Don't let being single distract you from cooking and eating at home and exercising and cleaning. In ten years, you may still not have a woman, but you will be fat, unhappy, messy, etc. if you don't.

Women want men who are interesting and have friends. If you aren't doing anything with you life, women won't be interested because they'll see you as dull and boring. They'll think you're desperate and using them to feel less lonely which is a big turn off.

Here's some tips that will help:

1. Think positively. Try to see the good in everything all the time including your thoughts when you're alone. If you think "It's gonna be the same ol' thing for me for the next while." it probably will be. Those kind of thoughts create a self fulfilling prophecy because you won't do much to improve your situation since you don't think it will change. If you have a low self-esteem, search for websites to help you improve it because women want men who are confident and feel good about themselves. If you have a low opinion of yourself, other people will wonder why and not think highly of you.

2. Socialize more. Talking to people will help you feel less lonely, might get you some friends, and will help you understand yourself and other people better.

3. Be yourself. No one wants a friend or partner who is "normal" or average. Everyone is different and has traits that make them unique. People want to know the real you because they can't feel connected to you if nothing differentiates you from other people.

Some good advice here. To add to the bolded statement: To not feel used, a woman needs to believe that you are interested in her specifically, not just wanting any woman who will have you.

A woman will never fix this for you. A relationship can be a great addition to life, for sure, but if you are relying on it to fulfill you it won't end well. What happens when the initial flame and excitement cools?

Instead of pizza, I used to get Chicken Delight or Chinese when I was in my 20s.

I also had a mattress on the floor, and no TV.

that must’ve been boring with no internet back then

I’ve gotten so used to being a teenager and especially now that I’m 20 it’s become more clear to me how much life I have ahead of me and that I won’t be this young forever. It’s making me feel existential dread.

Another way of describing my age is that I’m 11 months away from being able to legally drink.

Both posts have good advice.

All I can add is, if you are a skunk, I'd advise you remove your scent glands.
It has done wonders for me.
Seriously.

It wasn’t boring at all! I used to read classic literature.

Great points. I think that also explains the problems I used to have trying to find friends. When I was lonely and desperately needed a friend, I was willing to do anything to get someone to like me. Since people probably knew I wasn't interested in them specifically but just wanted to use them to feel less lonely, the only people interested were people who took advantage of my situation and used me. That made me think the world was full of bad people. I've since realized, I needed to improve my self-esteem and fix my own problems first. Since I overcame my problems, I've been able to just be myself and people like me. I don't even have to try or do anything other than being myself and treating people with respect to get people to like me.