Demons and Ghosts: Why I Have To Stop Coming Here

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I have too many demons and ghosts here. They were born from my emotions that I bared for all to see here and my failures to overcome the obstacles I have been dealt with in my life. They are everywhere I look here and they laugh at me for being unable to defeat them. I used to hope one day I would be able to post a celebratory thread but after 4 years and with nothing getting better for me, it’s clear that day will never come. Even undergoing TMS, forcing myself to exercise, trying college again, attempting to draw again, trying different social media apps, and applying for a new job that I still haven’t been called or emailed back from for a few weeks now didn’t take my life in a better direction.

I post on Autism Forums/Aspies Central now but I don’t know for how long. Considering how my life goes, I may have to stop posting there as well. I wanted to live a happy life but it’s been denied to me. I was born prematurely and wasn’t expected to live. Maybe death was supposed to be my true state?

I am the only one of five siblings who doesn’t have a career, a relationship of any sort, and any children. Why did I have to become cursed while they succeeded?

Your participation will be missed.

I'm not sure why struggling is a reason to leave a community of people who want to encourage you, but if this place only adds to how you feel I can understand why you'd leave.

I get that, Mark. I did the same in the past ... almost did the same recently. You are someone I greatly admire, as you’ve genuinely strived to overcome and have gone to great lengths. Do what you need to do, but just know that you will be missed if you leave. You’re valued here and someone who is worthy of our support.

Yeah - I may have been one of those ghosts. I always warned you about that way you decided to go. Of course I always underestimate really strong phantasies of others... Goodbye and be always nice to yourself!

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I am as I am. Life has to be an adventure!

Why do you feel that because some people have a type of life that you are ‘supposed ‘to?
Read the posts in WP; many/most of us live alone.
Perhaps you can be a content single person; accepting and liking yourself and your life.
That is MY goal.
WP members are helping me with that.

I have a feeling that I might be one of those spirits as well. I was trying to help the best I could. The best of luck. I'll miss you.

I understand the feeling.
I avoided many places that reminded me of pain, for long time.
Long-lasting pain is hard to resolve, clearing deep wounds to heal them takes a lot of courage.
I wish you best wherever you go!

I wish you all the best

Sorry to see you go if this is definitive.

If you ever get back into music let me know, I'd be happy to try collaborating, either together or a project or just a split featuring your project and mine. With any luck by then I might know enough about promoting music that we'll both get some attention.

Wishing you the very best of luck, you are a great person. I have been through periods such as you are experiencing now and they did pass, bringing hope into my life. I sincerely wish the same will happen in yours.

All the best with your endeavours Marknis! thanks for the messages and support means alot. Take care. Like you, i'm on here less and less and will no longer be on here either. Wishing you all the best!

WP is less when people leave.

So true.