A year on into this crisis it may seem different now we have vaccines, but I seem to feel as though any hope for normalcy to return will never happen. I mean I heard one epidemiologist said we may have several more years of social distancing and wearing masks until the rest of world is vaccinated. Hearing that just made my heart sink. I seems as though that even if 65 or 66 million people in the country (the UK) becomes vaccinated, people will still have to stay away from families, everyone will still have to speak to one another through phones and laptops, still no shaking hands, no hugging, no special occasions such as Christmas with families ever again etc. I know people both suffering with the virus and with crisis mentally is hard and some are resorting to taking their own lives because they can't cope anymore. I don't want to take my own life because I don't want to cause upset and misery to the family and because I'm maybe too scared to face death but I just want to enjoy life but it feels like its being wasted and I don't want to be middle aged or old by the time its all over.