Ahhhh...
So we all have intellectual disability, autoimmune diseases that do not come from any parents, learning disabilities, a bunch of comorbidities ADHD especially due to impulsivity and poor executive functions, clumsiness causing accident prone behaviors like drowning, depressive and suicidal, or plain unhealthy because of some gaslighting over food, congenital disorders that had nothing to do with behaviors, or just plain bullied and abused and then blame the victim.
You know what?
These past few days are all rather strange days for me. Like a shift in the air.
Nothing to do with what I or someone did or did not do.
But it could be hormones. Could be the weather. Could be what I just ate.
Or maybe the planets aligned and the fact the first day of the next month is coming.
It's just one of these weird days...
Like suddenly remembering dreams for few days after several weeks of nothing.
Or the fact my body temperature is warmer than usual. Or perhaps having more urge to roll my eyes than usual.
Or having a rather a more ravenous yet contradictory appetite.
Or thinking of different things that suddenly pops out of nowhere, contrary to the choice of focus. Like suddenly binging on TV.
Or just plain feeling weird -- too cold and too hot, seemingly sicker when not ill, craving but not hungry, having a lot of plans but did virtually nothing.
You know...
It's similar to seasonal depression. Or allergies. Or it's just one of those days in the month.
Something reoccurring over and over...
Of course it's not limited to myself.
Mom got a bit well but also sick, boss got happier but also angrier, drivers got cheaper yet more impatient...
You feel something similar?
Is this one of these days for you?