I am struggling so hard, after breaking up with my boyfriend of 13 years, two weeks ago. After a couple days of shock I was a wreck, even up until a few days ago. (But still not handling it the best).
He was my other half. Not just my boyfriend, he was my best friend.
I never really had friends offline (Except a one year period where me and a few coworkers would hang out) because of Asperger's and also how I look (I have Moebius syndrome, a rare condition that effects my face and other things) but when me and my ex got together, I had lots of other friends online, but over the years most of them moved on with their life, which is understandable. Meanwhile I got less inclined to try and make new friends. (And with anime message boards and things closing down it was harder to make them anyway).
So now that my my ex is gone, its not just being single, its only having a couple online friends left who are busy a lot too, and feeling like I'll never find... even a best friend, again.
I go outside and people judge me based on how I look. And it's frustrating. I feel like the best way to meet a new friend is online, where they don't judge me by how I look, but yet these days I'm afraid to try and make new friends because of the horror stories you hear. It's hard.
10 May 2022, 2:49 pm
