I cannot do anything - I can do anything

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Fenn
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01 Jun 2022, 11:08 am

Depression? ASD? ADHD? Anxiety? Bipolar II?

Sometimes i think i cannot do anything.
Sometimes i think “i can do anything”

Today i don’t seem to be able to get out of bed.
Yesterday i had a second video conference interview for a job i don’t want which could be a disaster, or not. It might be good.

I am not falling apart.
I am slowly sinking.
With panic attacks.
And days when i feel ok.


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01 Jun 2022, 11:24 am

My social exhaustion often shows with two days delay: I go to a party, talk to lots of people, appear quite "normal" and even feel like this - and two days later, I'm all exhausted and not functional.
Violently fluctuating abilities are, I guess, an aspect of me being on the spectrum.


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01 Jun 2022, 1:42 pm

Thanks, Magz

One eval i had done suggested social/emotional overwhelm was more likely for me than bipolar. Ups and downs can have different causes.

Steady … seems to be very hard for me.


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01 Jun 2022, 1:48 pm

Yeah that bipolar is a b***h, I'm low mood most of the time, then get that confident grandiosity for about six hours.



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01 Jun 2022, 2:09 pm

Fenn wrote:
Steady … seems to be very hard for me.
For me, too.
I try to use the high energy moments for doing useful things and not to feel bad about slacking off in low energy times.
It's not easy but slow improvement can be seen.


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02 Jun 2022, 6:04 am

I'm all in on the "can't do anything" side of the game. It's an uphill battle to sleep. It's a climbing battle to live. Just posting here takes away my energy more than people will ever realize. Just eating enough food to maintain weight is equal to a marathon for me.

Autism - Schizophrenia - Melancholic Depression - Anxiety Disorders - PTSD - OCD

All suck away my life, compounding, feeding off one another, and most people don't understand outside of professionals or those that see it; it's alright that they don't, as invisible disability is invisible after all.

I kinda get a laugh out of people that get along in life, driving, working, friends, partners and/or the other things, and they complain about life. Yeah, you do that one. I have none of that, have had none of that in reality, and when I complain, which is rarely, they complain back with woe is them. Perfectly normal people complaining. Going blind in my left eye is kinda ho-hum to me. The same with the trigeminal neuralgia and gammy right hand.

I suppose this is me ranting. :|



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02 Jun 2022, 8:09 am

New day.

Got up, fed the cat, had two bottles of diet snapple iced tea, took my meds, fed myself.

Trying to “adult” today.


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02 Jun 2022, 8:28 am

Fenn wrote:
Trying to “adult” today.

Reminds me of this:
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