Something that is getting to me

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Hi

This is my first post so I hope this is in the right forum, also to make things easier I am posting as one of my favourite dragons

It’s hard being different, it’s not just missing those hidden cues or people seeing you as slightly off. That you are missing something, in all the films and to programme’s every one has a special interest that makes their lives easier. The simple truth is the most depressing and difficult thing for me is the hiding, the pretending to be normal, it’s exhausting.

Each day i have to put on this old, cracked mask, a public face I have to show. But putting on this mask is tiring, all the pretending and falseness. I am beginning to think this is why people with ASD struggle with interviews, we just can’t keep the mask going for that long. It’s so upsetting that I have to hide and pretend and the simple truth is that all this hiding is getting to me.

I have been pushed around and bullied a fair bit in my life, I shrug off so many things and very little does actually affect me. But this really does, it’s exhausting and tiring and it’s pushing me down. I don’t want to pretend anymore, I just want to be me.

I don't have a whole lot to say here because I'm just super tired right now, but I do just wanna say I totally get it and feel the same.

Welcome to Wrong Planet.

Hopefully, within the autistic community, you'll be able to find a few good friends with whom you don't have to pretend to be normal.

Sweet Pea hugs