I really seem to struggle to accept who I am and still try to compare myself to other people. I'm finding hard to convince myself that I should be happy as a singleton and learn to be patient and not rush into things and accept the room I have full of books and accept myself that I enjoy going out to the shops and places on my own. And yet I still have this issue keeping me from enjoying because I'm seeing other people my age or younger doing things that I seem to think most people do when they are that age and that therefore if I'm not doing that then it seems like there is something wrong with me. It still seems as though it is perceived as if something is wrong if I'm someone of that age and doesn't regularly go to social environments like pubs and bars in the effort of meeting new people or a potential partner, never had proper experience with a relationship (which I seem to think people properly experience in their teens), has few friends and continues to not go to a concert or go abroad somewhere because I'm not even willing to ask even members of my family (my mum, dad, stepmum etc) to come with me as though I'm embarrassed to keep going with them all the time and it's as though if a man is still seen going to places more often with his parents because he has few friends to go out with, it is as though its ''weird'' because he should be doing things independently from his parents and as I just mentioned the few friends I have are not into that stuff and so I end up not going. I still won't even do these things even though I can drive. It then leaves me feeling other people have been to more concerts and more countries abroad than me and seems like I'm just wasting my life.
31 Aug 2022, 5:42 am
