I wish I could commit suicide right now

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I just wish I could. I am disappointed that I am not able to go through with it physically. It might have to suffice that I go through with it mentally.

(((skibum)))

Thank you

What happened that made you feel this way?

Been there.I’m sorry that you or anyone would feel that way.

Yea, I've also been suicidal (with a good job and no real reason to be like that apart from clinical depression)..

Emailing these may help with someone to talk to: [email protected]

Thank you so much guys. I don't have a deathwish but I am consistently bullied and have been all my life, and often very brutally and there is nothing that can be done to stop it. I am so exhausted and literally beaten down that it becomes very difficult for me to sustain it. I just want a break from the constant harassing, bullying and gaslighting. The hard part is that it's not just one or two people in particular, the nature of my combination of disabilities attracts social predators and so they find me no matter where I go and no matter what I do. I have no way to escape them. The other part is that the nature of my specific disabilities makes it impossible for me to see them coming or to have any defense at all. So it makes me the perfect target and that is why people like me are sought out and targeted by these kinds of people. Even my three therapists and disability lawyer all keep saying that there is no way to help me because there is nothing anybody can do. If I were a physical child or a "low functioning" person, or maybe even an elderly person, there would be resources that would help me. But there is no one and there are no resources that are available to protect and help people in my situation. So, I just have to live with it. I was recently physically assaulted to the point of causing injury which made me lose function in my right hand for over a week, yet no one is willing to help me legally or even emotionally. My therapists give me as much emotional support as they can, but the damage is so bad that I might not be able to recover. Yet I keep getting told by everyone that there are no resources that will help or protect me.

I have been bullied like this by so many people for years and yet nothing can be done about it, but I am expected to just keep functioning with no help or supports at all even though I also severely struggle with the challenges of my disabilities as well. I am just so weak and exhausted that I am slowly losing the ability to sustain life.

^ That is so sad, Skibum. I am so sorry for what you've been put through. The lack of support is disgusting. (Hugs)

Ah that's terrible, I've had some experience of that but moved to a small town to get away from that type of thing.

Thank you so much

((( love you )))


Try to focus on the people who don't bully you.
There are lots of us who think you're amazing.
We won't screw you around like that.
You don't deserve any of this.

If you email [email protected] they will get back to you within 48 hours.

Tell them how you are feeling and what has caused it. They have been very helpful to me over the past few weeks.

If you can get through this better days are ahead.

If it's a nice day go out for a walk in the sunshine. Listen to the rain or the birds tweeting. Get in touch with nature and things that lift your mood. Exercise is very good at lifting your mood. Maybe ask your doctor if they could prescribe anti depressants? If you've had ups and downs in your life maybe try and think of the ups.

(((skiburn)))

Im sorry to hear you are feeling so bad and the bullying can’t be stopped. You are well loved here.
(((skibum)))