How to relax?

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I was supposed to have a fun night out tonight. I had been looking forward to it for a while. Whilst I enjoyed it, I couldn't enjoy it fully. The shadow of work loomed over me. Frankly to the point where I started crying on the way home because I needed some form of emotional release. I have been under a lot of stress lately.

Recently I had a dream where I was fired and when I woke up, I was almost disappointed that it had been a dream. Although with the way things are going, my boss just might fire me in reality. He has made remarks recently that he doesn't think I'm cut out for the job.

I want to hold out until I find a new job, but I don't think I can. There are a lot of small things that have been building and building up overtime.

A shame really because I used to be good at switching off from work after clocking out. Yet I have lost that ability recently. I almost feel as if I have lost a part of myself and I am living someone else's life.

So. Any advice on what I could do to relax? What helps you wind down? I don't think all this ruminating lately has been healthy for me mentally. I would like a break.

Alcohol, ecigs and masturbation works for me.

Reminding myself to take it one day at a time and that this is only temporary seems to help.

I can get through this time in my life. Sometimes I won't be strong. I'll crack. That's OK. I just need to be kind to myself.

My ASD BFF and I talk about this a lot. From our earliest memories something would be looming over us. I see it in my ASD daughter. At times of idleness all of us have something nagging us that needs to be done that we have nothing at the moment to do about it and yet we remain tense. We've all done various forms of CBT and that helps, but the body (nervous system) seems to do its own thing. It's like being in a state of high alert... all the time. I can tell myself I have done what I need to and I am safe and that will work for 15 min until I am inexplicably tense again. Next up for me is to try more body work (e.g. Rolfing). In the meantime, being busy is the closest I get to relaxing. I enjoy working, it's relaxing! No? Who says?

They say to put your feet up and relax. But when I tried that the blood rushes to my head and I am not relaxed.