Feeling Like I Don’t Belong

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I feel like I don’t belong here, I can’t handle living in this decade. There are ALOT of things that I should know for my age, but I don’t know them, I feel like I can have a child brain, other times I feel older & smarter. Do anybody feel this way?

Yes.

It's this age-dysphoria thing. It's common within autism. It's a developmental disorder after all, and as it is a spectrum.

Then this common phenomena -- having or lacking specific traits or experiences to relate to.
An individual basis of comparison, but it is natural to feel different due to that.

It's like the thread killing phenomena.
Where everyone thinks that they're being left out of something, or things went awkward due to lack of feedback.

But the sentiment itself, I understand.
The reason was because I'm a foreigner.

It's like autism within autism.

Whereas that this foreigner feeling amongst natives is somewhat a default in real life...
Depending on the individual, it may be better or worse as an actual autistic foreigner.

Except in my own case, I can accept it.
I don't have to play a certain role or dynamic to be 'belonged'. I don't have an intrinsic desire to be belonged.
Though there are roles that I do enjoy...

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Yeah, I relate as much as I'm able. Somedays I feel like a teenager who is, for some reason, expected to know how to do all this 'adulting' that I'm really not qualified for. Other days I do feel like some ancient thing with some brains and abilities who is capable of navigating life. My stuff comes down to (more often than not) an inability to manage multiple things at once and issues with dealing with stress and/or change, more than a lack of knowledge how to. I have no idea how so many people 'just do' things. I shut down and cannot more than I care to admit. It drives me nuts sometimes and can get me down. Other times I am at peace with it. The lack of consistency can bother me as well, but it's how I'm living.

You sound exactly like me. I believe this has something to do with the fact that our intelligence tends to be uneven, so you may excel in some things and completely suck at others. That, and also having the ability to see how crappy the modern world has become.