All the way through my life, i tried to figure out how to have something valuable, and build my life (money, social circle, etc)
But all my struggle is for nothing. Im about to become 26, but no accomplishments. Thought i had time but it was so fast that I became 26 years old.
My younger ages (11-23) wasted with psychiatric treatments and therapy. Meds just gave me a fake happiness along with terrible side effects. Therapy was just not useful. When i was 12-14 my parents took me to different doctors and even a neurologist but it was not helpful. My iq was measured 145 back then and that's what i worry about. Losing my potential over the years is annoying. My parents, teachers, peers in school, etc, thought that i would be successful. Something held me back and now i'm not even unemployed. But i was a complete weirdo and that may be the reason. Lost potential is disappointing.
Now i can't guess what i should do next. My parents are getting older, my siblings are more involved in their own lives, im talking with relatives less frequently. Im getting lonelier and afraid of ending up completely alone and lost. I dont want to waste my whole life, but dont know how to get out of this loop. There is less time and i dont know exactly where to start. Every passing year i worry more than before.
What would you do if you were in my shoes?
My life is stuck at the moment and i dont have any idea how to get it in order
10 Sep 2023, 6:32 am
