I don’t know what to do
I’m in my 30’s, have a 9 to 5 job with an hour commute each way. I notice I feel exhausted afterwards and increasingly during work. I don’t have anything to look forward to, I feel down a lot of the time and even though I live with my parents talking to them doesn’t help me. I don’t have any time to do hobbies or meet people who could be friends/more than friends. I am reliant on my parents for food and washing and whatnot. I have a disease that affects my digestive system and Asperger’s. I simply don’t know what to do to make myself happier. Trying anything new comes with anxiety and feels like a lot of effort, I feel very sad that nothing will change and will be alone for the rest of my days. I am stuck, none of my old friends check in with me. Relationships feel very surface level, I don’t have a deep connection with anybody. I want to cry. Possibly I need therapy but I don’t know how to get that when I am working all the time. I already struggle to get a haircut and these things take up precious time on a weekend. I don’t think anyone cares.
I would suggest checking into your diet and if possible find a good nutritionist through your doctor to help you. Our stomachs are extremely important with moods and mood regulation as several neurotransmitters are grown in the gut microbiome.
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