Feeling sometimes like a failure in my dad's eyes

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This is just a feeling, my dad doesn't think I'm a failure as I think he's glad I'm working and driving and so on but as I may have said before if it hadn't been for my dad, I probably might not driving a car still today had it not been for his persuasion to take hazard perception tests that costed money which I failed at least 12 or 13 times and only failed once on my driving test. I passed on my second test. But now I'm feeling like he is concerned because I haven't still got to stage where I'm with a partner that he's going to keep bringing it up the longer time goes on and that just aggravates my anxiety and only just makes me think I'm a "failure" because unlike my sister who has a son (but unmarried), I'm still single and it makes me feel bad and thinking into your 30s you "should" be married with one or two children by now.

I haven't spoken to my dad about these thoughts and the anxiety it provokes in me. I still feel even if I say it to him, he won't change how he sees things because he managed to get married and have me at 27/28 and have my sister at 31.

Parents always want the best for their kidz....and jumping into a relationship due to parental pressure , is not good for you or your partner. Its something you have to spend the rest of your life with.Long after parents are passed on.
And Aspie nen seem to have some difficulties in doing the personal relationship thing. Same with Aspie women,from my past perspective. Did not find a winner until my early forties . Then he up and died 13 years later . So nothing is perfect or , forever. Best you can hope for might be common interests and values ..Best wishes on your future.

I do find myself as well comparing to others like me who are autistic and a few I recognise from school days had kids with their partners whenever the argument of being autistic comes along as though it's a "reason" or a "barrier" for why certain things in life haven't happened but I look at them and think, "well they are like me, so I do they manage it now as a father?"

Had read somewhere that ,it is not necessarily good (not fair to youself) to compare yourself to others. As many have written on this site , When you meet one Aspie, you have met only one Aspie. Part of life ,is finding your own way ,in the world . but it is normal for people to want to make comparisons, but they maynot always serve you beneficially.