I know I've bragged about feeling forced by myself to feel like doing certain things because I'm seeing others doing them like marriage and kids but I can somehow visualise myself with my own child and struggling like my sister sometimes has with her five year old. My sister has lately had to get have our mum to look after him sometimes while she wants time to herself. Her partner for a while was going out and doing his own thing as though he still had no kids and single and it was mostly always only my sister who had to raise him. I have this worry that I might end up like him if this happens.
I don't know why but it feels as though I've missed out on the "good days" which were the 20s and feel as though I should have crammed everything into that decade like dating, parties, holidaying etc into it because it feels as though the 30s seems "less enjoyable" because it feels as though people are rushing things before the next decades come along and I don't want to think about it and want to be present in the moment.
22 Nov 2025, 9:02 am
