I can make myself cry...

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... sometimes , by thinking that I wish I'd been born when Aspergers' was diagnosed when you were a child , thinking what mmy life might have been like if I had received some training/help in learning to cope and people had been taught to be a bit moore understanding to me - I was sobbing out loud just then , here in the library .
If only .
Now , my leg is rotting away , on its way I suppose to amputation , since I can't get the recovery time for getting better after the toe operation that I've been trying to get for MONTHS , ever since the WA hospital backed out on me - You'll remember that the " helpful " medical people at the Homeless Medical Center said I was " too Aspie/OCD to get help " , although their main source of this seems to bethe lying claims of that nursing place I was in in 2014 which , quite obviously , reporting false things to the Santa Cruz Sheriff's Office that they put up on their Facebook page when I left here in 2014 ` who else but the nursing place with have reported these ~ false things to them ?
As I've said , even being able to rest and stay in someone's garden pavilion or garage , not trying to spend time indoors , just staying/leaving my stuff in the garage/shack would help , I think .
With all the things I've had stolen/lost , I could use some money to build myself up .

...I JUST NEED RECOVERY FROM THE OPERATION (well , + some money ~ & safety )

Mod Note: Moved from GAD to the Haven

That is hard. I was diagnosed at 12 and no one would even tell me what it meant, I just felt like a mental case until I was old enough to look it up. Even then I still didn't know what it was. So not always the best thing. And don't be ashamed of crying in public. Those who don't are just people who will hold it in until they go home and cry which is no different.

Your leg doesn't sound very good at all, but you can only cope how you know how, so cry, scream, do whatever you need to do. I'd love to help more but I'm on the other side of the world.

Peace,
Cad

...Cathylynn sent me a PM , to which I replied...But I haven't found super ultra exact confirmation that my reply went out , so...........

...I'm rather combining things I've said in all my posts , so if you need a reference explained , please tell me...I) think the trip to WA became a disaster after the results of the operation's aftermath ...I seem to have the infestation/insects back , the follow-up Nix ! application (from an organization , not Nix I bought) was incomplete , just a " good enough " dry app on my head only-Not enough It's 'bout $20-$30 a box , remember .
Many people seem to want me to go somewhere else , not stay here in SC .
Perhaps I could , after maybe exausting/trying some connections/possible oppurtunities here , perhps .
In the meantime , I have had so many things stolen , need better clothes (second-hand for the " normals " is okay)...

...I can make myself cry by remembering my mother , in 1978 , telling me " Oh , No ! !! First you have to prove you9 DESERVE to go away to college ! !! " I just did... .........

Sorry about that, sir.

I can make farting noises by thrusting my palm into my right eye.

What's your point?

Where are you staying tonight?

Remembering your mum saying something to you would probably make yourself cry. It's nostalgia, happens to a lot of people. Please, ASS-P, stay safe, wherever you're living and whatever you're doing now.

...It was not a pleasant thing to hear from my mother , Cad , because of what it led to/symbolozed - I.e. , that I NEVER DID full-fleged go to college (Note: I have-assedly went to a community college , it and what led on from it DID NOT GO WELL , I never truly went to " real " college , ever so that's why I say " full-fledged " (There was one time when I was weirdly " backdoor-registered " at a - relatiely (In the Northeast anyway) " brand-name " , too but that didn't actually lift off and furthermore , said college (NYU) screwed me over/broke their promise after that ).)
What I was denied ...........

...KK , I stayed in the same area I have almost every night here in SC , " sleeping rough " as the Commonwealthers put it , again:-l

...The library cop here just gave me s**t over crying (Hardly hysterically or breaking down !) just now , saying " Be mindful of your surroundings " . f**k you . Die .

...Perhaps that means I'll get tossed outta here and , not only have to break my computer time into 1-hr. segments (Which may explain some of my prose styling to you .) , so , I might not be able to do a two-parter of my " main " intended post for to-day , so , I'd best put up at least the intro now?? ~ ...........