Worried about my future in America

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I'm sorry this is political. I'm trying to emotionally process the events going on in the US, and I felt this needed to go in the Haven section instead of PPR.

I've been stressing out about this, and it's leading to feelings of depression. I feel like there's no hope here. I'm seeing my country descend into a repeat of the Third Reich, and I could very well be sent to the death camps because of my disability and because I'm a political dissident.

Just today I read that RFK is "trying to find the cause of autism by next year" or something to that effect. Like, they're going to find some "cure" and force all of us to take that cure, which there's like a 50/50 chance that the "cure" is either some lobotomizing drug or just straight-up euthanasia.

It's not like this hasn't happened before. The mentally disabled were Hitler's first targets as well. The Nazi Party invited people to send their disabled loved ones to "hospitals" to "get help", and it turned out the "help" was just the Nazis euthanizing them.

Don't think that this can't happen in the US. We've already seen Trump blatantly violate the Constitution and Congress and the courts do absolutely nothing about it. Brian Kilmeade of Fox News already floated the idea of putting homeless and mentally disabled people to death. When they "float an idea" like that, they're trying to test the waters to see what they can get away with. They wouldn't be talking about it if they weren't actually planning on doing it.

At the same time, I'm now hearing news that they're building incinerators in the ICE detention facilities, just like the furnaces in Auschwitz. When they closed Alligator Alcatraz, they found that 4,000 people were missing, likely either killed or sold to human traffickers. The genocides have already begun.

I really wish I could just pack up and take a one-way cruise across the Atlantic, but I'm not sure if customs officials in Europe would deem the situation bad enough to accept me as a refugee, and there's no way they'd give me a work visa, since I've lived on government benefits for most of my adult life. It's also the fact that everyone outside of the US hates Americans. I wouldn't be welcome in a country like Spain or Italy, even though I didn't choose to be born in this country, and I've been a vocal opponent of American imperialism and any other f***ed up s**t my country does that other countries hate us for.

But the worst part of it is there's still people who support this guy and act like he's the second coming of Christ. Even with the new Epstein files being released basically proving that he diddled kids, they still support him. It's like we just can't get through to these people, but we need Trump's die-hard supporters to defect if Trump is to be stopped.

I'm tired of feeling depressed and anxious all the time. I'm tired of feeling helpless. I'm tired of not knowing if I'm gonna even be alive a year from now. I'm tired of every single day bringing some brand new horror in the news. I'm tired of having to hold myself back in promoting my music because I need to keep a low profile and avoid fame so as to not let the Trump regime know that I exist. And most of all, I'm tired of people gaslighting me and telling me I'm anti-American for feeling this way.

I do wish people would stop saying autistic people are going to be put in f*****g death camps. Where do you get all this from? Who says you're going to be put in a death camp? Doesn't this Trump and the other c**t know that every person in history (except Foster ) who has done something clever had autism?

I hate all this talk on these autism sites about death camps. It makes me hate, hate, HATE my f*****g diagnosis, and frightened of Nigel Farage getting in next election. It makes me want to commit suicide. I am not going to be tortured in f*****g death camps. And will it just be autistic people that have this looming fate, or is it everyone with a diagnosis of some sort? Downs syndrome, ADHD, diabetes? If you know so much about these death camps then you'd know who they're going to round up and put in them.

f**k autism. f**k it to hell. I f*****g hate autism I hate this life, why the f**k are all my family NTs and I have to have f*****g Asperger's for?

While I don't think there will be death camps, I have also contemplated an exit from the US.

The rise of Christian nationalism is my reason for wanting out. Sweden would be my first choice, since verses such as Leviticus 18:22 may go against their strict hate speech laws, and the words, thoughts and actions of religious people are highly regulated. But one's only hope of getting into any country is to have a very in-demand skill (meaning AI or computer science).

My field is urban planning, and the top foreign country that shows up in lists of places in high demand for urban planners is the Netherlands.

So Trump and RFK has appeared on the TV in front of their nazi camps pointing to the camera saying, "haha, we built these just exclusively for autistic people because you're the most disabled folk on the planet that need to be tortured and gassed like it's Nazi Germany 1930, and nothing can stop us because we're leaders and we can change whichever laws we want, haha! Trust us, we know where you live, and we're sending our minions out right now to pack you on the train to your most deserved fate! Good old medical records, where would be without them?"

It's 2am and I'm wide awake with a rapid heartbeat and trembling in fear. Now I'm never going to get any sleep tonight.

I don't know. I just don't know anymore. Nothing about this timeline makes sense.

I meant I can reassure you that it will not happen.

I sure hope he's right. I'm just utterly stupified by how people are just mindlessly going along with everything Trump says when it's plain as day that he's walking us off a cliff. Is it that hard to just say "No" to this guy?