Ragtime wrote:
For some strange reason, the normal things that usually don't bother me are adversely influencing me. What is this called? I'm not depressed, and nothing has happened to depress me, but the buzzing of my alarm clock did seem particularly rude this morning -- as if I had become hypersensitive to it and it's implied demand that I wake up. All I want to do is sleep, yet I got plenty of sound sleep last night. :?: It's difficult to even write this. Now back to covering my eyes...
Dunno' if what I go through is like what you're describing-feeling agitated, irritated, annoyed as **** at every little thing (whether external environment or internal mental content). It's mode (not mood, in my opinion) or state of being, same stuff that normally bothers me (but I can tolerate) just bothers me
way more than usual.
Have many things I'm nervous/anxious about, and they add up to my feeling angry & helpless to improve things or my reactions. My skin weirds me out, things itch, tickle, and feel rough. My life depresses me, and so on.
Taking a nap (whether or not I've slept 'enough' already), if possible, is best solution I've come up with-somehow, magically, things are slightly more bearable when I wake up. Whatever works as temporary distraction to get me through next few minutes or hours until I feel different. Don't have the "future-brain" function where I can believe I'll feel better later, yet on some level know at some point I'll be in a better frame of mind or whatever (and I just have to find way to 'hold on' until then...).
It's constant struggle.
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