To This I Pledge my Sacred Honor

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So I went to a party diagonal from my house. Had a couple of beers (first time) because I was under unbearable stress. And I must say, it was a lot of fun. But I don't plan to drink again, it isn't worth the bullsh!t it entails. Stupid stupid stupid. But it wasn't so much the drinking of poison, as the stupidity of the people involved.
So I came back after the party and started playing Chrono Cross. I heard a couple of firecrackers a couple of different times. Shortly after the first explosion, my window explodes. My parents come down stairs. They talk about insurance and such. I finish up my Chrono Cross and become quietly pessimistic. Later on, the cop that my parents called arrives at my door. Apparently a kid they caught has accused me of breaking a window, in my own house. The idea was to distract the cops from the underage drinking. Autism not failing I guess, the cop believes I'm involved.
I don't know what will happen from here.
But
F**K
So help me god if I ever see a party across the street again, there may be an anonymous phone call to the cops. (title)

What a dark dark day.
I f**king hate this stupid world. I know, worse stuff happens. THAT'S WHAT GETS TO ME. EVERYDAY IMMEASURABLE SUFFERING EVERYWHERE. Even living a normal life is a struggle.
Injustice is the worst. I've always had an innate sense of justice even if it goes against what's best. So injustice like this is just so ret*d.

I just don't want to deal with this sh*t, which compiled together is what we call life. Shoot me.

Guys, I really need responce.

Well luckily for me I avoid parties at all costs, because that level of social interaction is overwhelming for me, and I also don't drink because I am unstable and possibly dangerous enough as it is without losing my ability to make good decisions.
So with so few people knowing who I am and with me not getting out much, I never have to face the cops. I couldn't imagine how nervous I would be if they came to my home, because I cant say I dont have anything to hide, it would just take them a long time to find it is all, they would pretty much have to be looking specifically for it.
Eh, my point is, what is the problem anyway?
Somebody accused you of breaking a window? Doesn't seem that bad, pop him in the mouth, teach him a lesson.

So what did the cops finally do? Is the case closed?

drinking beer for the aspergers suffers is best done alone. atleast in my case, i cant get drunk around anyone because it makes me angry and changes my personality. i also smoke weed alone and cant do it around anyone because i get super paranoid

Thanks for replying. And by the way, I probably won't become some sort of vigilante as I had said in my post. It was one douchebag.
I'm not in trouble really, my parents aren't going to pursue the matter. Thing is, I've been very stressed lately, feeling worthless and like life is pointless and boring and painful, so the window thing just kinda pushed me into a little breakdown.
In the end I'll do day to day things because there are too many people who care about me for me to give up.

I've spent my whole life in seclusion and doing what I was supposed to, and what does it amount to? At least drug addicts have some fun along the way.

Shoot me. I'm not suicidal, but I really don't feel like living.
Why fear death? Death is easy, you don't have to do anything. It's living you've got to be afraid of.

I keep wanting to just walk into the woods somewhere to escape from this dull frustrating existence.
i guess I'm just pitying myself right? But what else is there to do? It's not like there are positive emotions I can focus on.

Well, you're taking a step in the right direction, telling your story here. Telling one's story can be very theraputic. Let us be your woods.