Sensory deprivation

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School will not be enough for me.


A normal social life will not be enough for me.


A normal job was not enough for me.


A normal family will not be enough for me.


Normal friends will not be enough for me.


Normal weekends doing normal things will not be enough for me.


A normal psychoactive is not enough for me.


Normal food is not enough for me (for me, that's boring fattening junk; fruit is too expensive here and vegetables are a lot of the time bland and boring, and sometimes gross)


A normal routine will kill me.


All these normal people want down time, they want their quiet time, and I'd better not disturb them-- thus I can't get my stimulation.


A normal boyfriend will not be enough for me.


A normal religion will not be enough for me. I READ the Bible, and I don't think I want to read the other ones. How can I be a good Christian when I'm understimmed anyway? I feel like I can do so much more than life allows me to do.


A normal neighborhood with normal neighbors will not be enough for me.


Reading normal books about normal stories will not be enough for me.


The news depresses me.


Everyone has their own life; there's no room for me ANYWAY.


A normal life is a wasted life.


God help me.


Am I gas chamber material or what?

My dear, I am SO there with you!! ! I feel like life moves in Slo-Mo almost all the time. The only time I feel fully engaged is when I am driving 95mph in heavy traffic on some New York City Parkway. The rest of the time, I feel like a slug, half awake, half alive. I NEED heavy stim. I think that must be why I love NYC so much: there, amid the lights/noise/traffic/people/cacophony of stimuli, I FINALLY begin to feel alive.

I feel like my life is a waste of my potential, but I don't have a CLUE how to fix it.

Wow Ana, insatiable much? Just joking, don't take that seriously. I'm sorry to hear you're so understimulated. I wish I had some good advice for you, but I've never had that problem, I like peace and quiet and solitude. I hope someone else has something helpful to tell you.

Liberty, you make me feel so much better! Thank you; finally someone understands EXACTLY how I feel! I also feel like my life is a waste of my potential (please, prople who want to post calling me arrogant, save it!) We should team up and do something! Finally explained it in a way where people understand!


I was obsessed with New York City when I ws like 10; I decided that was the most stimulating place in the world to be! I wouldn't mind raising a family there, a huge family, with 10 kids or more... I wrote these stories with these kids that had a life I wish I had... kids who lived in New York City, this large group of friends and the main character was a girl named Charity who had a huge family and all kinds of things happened to them.

What do you have in mind?

What do you like doing? I must confess I like disasters. Or anything stimulating at all; hmm, if a few more people posted in this thread saying they wanted to we understimmed AS people could live in New York City together!


Libby, do I sound like I'm rushing in?

I used to live in NYC...and LOVED it!! ! I would LOVE to go back, but because of family responsibilities, I can't right now. I do go visit my friends there when I can.

I love disasters/emergencies/crises - anything that causes me to have to think/move/react quickly to get stuff done. I considered becoming and ER Doc or a Paramedic. Firefighter works, too. The bit of that I have done has been a natural high like no other...unreal!!

ME TOO! I love disasters, emergencies, crises, illegality, havign to escape or dodge something, that sort of thing. I'd probably have done better at Auschwitz than I would have done in high school, lol.

Until one actually occurs, I guess.

I was happiest during the 1998 ice storm that struck my province-- my city was struck the worst-- and it was declared a state of emergency. And around Dawson College during and right after the shooting, when they were looking for another shooter and he was said to be wandering around among us. And whenever there was another disaster. I would never want to be the victim, the one too close to it. I know that.


How can I explain?

It's not that strange. Humans crave excitement, whether or not some of us admit it.

I do because I'm understimulated. DUH.

That's the problem with society. People are content with boredom and mediocrity.

Now I know what you mean. Yeah, I can relate. Life is too easy, too routine. I'd much rather have a challenge, something to work for where the effort pays off to something greater than money. I can do work if only because it does give me money, which I can buy games with, which simulates actual challenge and danger. School was so boring, learning about things that had little to no importance, and skipping over the stuff that was actually interesting.

So instead of finding something worth the effort, I've gone and become a video game nut. But personaly, I'm NOT content with the mediocrity. Like you two, I'd like to find something more than this. But I tend to over-analyze, and find too many flaws in something cool. If you find something, please tell us. I don't plan on delivering pizzas forever, but I don't know what else I want to do.

EXACTLY. My challenge is that I'm not challenged enough.