I have a negative view of the world.

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I most certainly do. There are several things that I do not like about the world. I hope I can relate to some of you as I have felt that most people on here aren't like me after all.

One of them is the fact that life needs to be full of stereotypical psychology. I often feel that when talking about my insecurities, I don't know where to start. One thing is that I criticise a lot of things in the world, such as war and crime, among other things. However, people could criticise me for being critical and I could also be classed as a hypocrite. For example, in Year 8, I used to revolt at immature behaviour and comment on it, and people pointed out that I criticise and take away the fun. When they did that, I criticised them of doing the same thing. I sometimes feel that I can't have my own opinion because most people don't agree, and people can criticise me. I believe that I should be perfect.

In school I also picked up the attitude that I cannot have a sense of security. This is because people can't just be happy with what they have; there is always room for improvement. However, people have told me not to crack up or work too hard to the extent that I get stressed. This is contradictory to me: Do work but don't do work. Eh?! Perhaps it is due to my black and white attitude that I always go for one extreme or the other.

Because NTs are NTs and I have to put up with them every day, I feel less unique than I did a year ago. I tend to think that NTs deliberately say certain things (even if it isn't necessarily bullying) to annoy me, such as people over-socialising or hearing them say something nasty about another person. For example, right now my brother is playing music, interrupting complete silence. Why can't people do what I want them to?

I also feel that socially my life is going down the drain. Although I have four friends (2 AS, 2 NT), my NT friends are too different from me and I am relating less to my Aspie friends. One of them (who I can relate to very well) has made some new acquaintances in 6th form and won't see me at school anymore. My other friend sees me every lunch time but he obsessively talks about video gaming and comedy (and his brother, who also sees me), so much to the extent that conversations with him have become one-sided, tedious and monotonous.

Also, because people on here haven't really been supportive with me as I first thought, I have been slightly discouraged from posting on here as people don't really support me that much. I hope they do now!

I am nearly 16, so do most of you go through this pubic regressive state of mind? I would also like comments on my thoughts, and possible support.

Just remember that what you see is what you get.