today i was fired from my job.
this is the third time in the last year, fourth in the last year and a half.
before that, i had worked with the same company for 18 years...kinda just got into a comfort zone and worked my way up to the ranks of management.
but since i was let go from that job, things have just gone downhill. i can't seem to find a job and hang onto it. something always happens...usually someone with some kind of influence doesn't like me. this time, it was my assistant manager convinced my district manager that i wasn't doing my job, and without even talking to me about the accusations, today decided to let me go, telling me that it was 'either i let go the entire staff, or i let go the manager. so i'm letting you go.'
so i have to go job hunting again...which i am getting to be good at, seeing as i have spent the better part of the last year doing it. problem is, with my management experience, i cannot get a 'regular' position (over qualified or they figure i'll want too high a salary) and yet i cannot convince myself that i'm a good enough manager (even with over 10 years experience) to continue to look for jobs in management.
i just feel like such a loser and a failure right now. i just wish i could die.
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