This can't be happening to me.

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Too much pressure on me right now.

Suicidal thoughts coming back.

I'm honestly afraid of my own safety at this moment.

hey...
i won't if you won't...
deal?

SUICIDE PACT!111 Call the FBI!1


This is new... a person fearing that they will hurt themselves rather than feeling they have to... I've had both, actually... feeling no need to stab myself in the head with a pencil but do it anyway... lame analogy, I know.

I'm going through the same crap, dude. I just upped my medicene a bit and I'm sure it'll go away..

What's happening?

You've been such a nice member on WP that if you died a lot of people here would be etremely sad about losing you. Just know that there are people here reaching out to hold on to your virtual hand while you work through this.

You`ve got a lot of living to do yet mate.

Hang in there. I have that feeling at least once a day myself. You're not alone out there -- the world is really this insane, but you are a brilliant light within it and you deserve to shine.

I find reading Psalms helps me in times like this. In fact, it was Bible that turned me around at the last moment (I was so vain, I had to clean my apartment first; a good thing too, since I had to pick up the Bible to do it). It does explain everything.

Stuff.

Mom's pressuring me to go to her wedding and reception in two weeks.

I'm not only uneasy about the whole thing, I don't want to risk a meltdown in public due to the noise.

I'm beginning to lose focus on things because of this.

I don't want to disappoint her by not going, but I'm at a point where I can't risk anything.

Just give her a call or somethin, and try to make her understand your situation

We communicate by email. We've been doing this. I just don't think she gets it.

That's great advice -- if your mom is understanding of such things. It would give you a chance to stay out of the limelight at the wedding without her thinking there is something wrong.

Can you go with a friend who would keep people from crowding you? Just to the wedding. Skip the reception or make a token 5-minute appearance.

Suicide = permanent solution to temporary problem(s). Not a wise choice.

When ever I have to do something I do not want too, it also totally stresses me out. You really need to phone and tell her, if you can not send her this thread... but really the longer you put it off the worse your feel, so PLEASE do it now and let things clam back down.

We can not please everyone else, its very rare NTs go out of there way for us anyway..

I know it must be hard being your mums wedding, but maybe you can do something special with her separate...

Sorry, I hope you are feeling better soon...

Would earplugs help a bit, if you end up going? They come in many different types, I use them for bars and nightclubs with the loud music and voices etc... I know it is all more difficult than just earplugs though...