PTSD Anniversaries
A couple of years ago, I changed jobs in an effort to do something more with myself. It was a complete disaster. I had never experienced such horrible bullying and shameless liars. It was the biggest mistake of my life. It destroyed my sense of self, and I developed textbook PTSD as a result.
Thankfully, I overcame the worst of it: the anxiety, panic attacks, sleeplessness, uncontrollable anger, etc. I now have a better job. However, some of the symptoms are resurfacing. This happened last year too. It's around this time that the awfulness came to an embarrassing conclusion and I had to quit.
Does anyone have difficulty with the anniversary of a horrible event? Does it cause problems for you against your will? How do you deal with it? How long did it take you to get past it? Thanks.
Yes I deal with the same emotional problems. I still haven't been diagnosed with PTSD & now I'm 24. So what...I'd NEVER want to prove I have PTSD. I think that AS can bring on some PTSD-like symptoms in some of us who have it. My toughest anniversaries are:
February 5 - my grandfather's death
February 6 - all Deaf-Blind Ohioans pushing me away
December 11 - my father put me on the street when I was 18
I'm always very sad & irritable on those days. I'm still trying to find new Deaf-Blind friends. I will NEVER give up. I don't miss my grandfather as much as I used to.
I find it a little easier on February 6 if I listen to "This is How a Heart Breaks" by Rob Thomas. He says, "Well this is it now...everybody get down...this is all I can take...this is how a heart breaks!" Sounds like he's doing a stickup
. I also listen to "Walking on Broken Glass" by Annie Lennox. Her lyrics almost perfectly express my situation with the Deaf-Blind for the past 4 years.
