i know how you feel, i also enjoy being tipsy/drunk, now being the good guy i am, i say stop craving for it (i am a hypocrite i know) you don't need it, experimenting is good but don't turn in into an addiction or the only happiness you'll know will be in a bottle.
and if you really want that feeling back try some beers instead of vodka, just drink a couple of beers and get a little tipsy it's relieves anxiety and makes you happy without f'ing you up that much
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don't try to take me away, like i can live without you/today making love tomorrow/some way swooping you're so fragile/died today you disgraced the model.