15 Apr 2008, 10:05 pm
Suppose your ex has never quite understood WHY you broke up with him. Suppose you hint to your ex that you might have Aspergers (cuz you have just understood that)...hint it as your Messenger customized message (Asperger -the Truth shall set you free). Suppose that happened yesterday. This is all a dream right now, maybe I'm dreaming?
This ex, that I THINK I love..do I really or am I obsessed too...he seemed to be kind of obsessed with me, too intense, which is what made me break up with him. But we seem to have some "meeting of the minds" going on...where he confesses to me (2 days ago) that he thought he saw me in my car, at night...he obviously thinks about me still...so do I.
Today I was online again, after my Asperger awareness BANNER yesterday. I said hi to him...no answer. I wasn't prepared for the END. Currently I am too shocked to make any sense of this. Numb.
Why? Did he actually google Asperger, get an incomplete idea..and got..scared? Or he didn't even notice my Asperger message...and just didn;t feel like replying today?
It's like a parallel universe. When wil I snap out of it?? 
