lingering social problems

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Just wondering if you all have similar experiences....

For most of my life people have been telling me "go away, no one likes you". (Yes, seriously.) Well, I haven't been around lots of people in the last 7 years, but before that anyway. I do have abest friend, even though we don't see each other much. When he first met me, one guy told him "Don't talk to her, she's weird, nobody likes her, I don't know why she hangs around." So that made him want to talk to me, and we ended up being great friends. But otherwise, there was always that "we're just tolerating you" attitude. Oh, why I hung around that house? It was my house, I lived there.
When I got divorced, not one of them ever called to see how I was doing. All those people who pretended to not hate me. And I know they all had the number, the phone rang constantly before that. (But it wasn't for me.) And my ex was a musician, so I'm talking about a LOT of people.

Anymore, I just don't even try to be friends with anyone, I automatically assume they're merely tolerating me. Also, I just can't make myself actually reach out to people. I'd like to, but I just can't do it.

All this just lingers. Anytime I'm talking to someone, in my head I'm thinking "Okay, shut up now and stop bothering the person. Just go away." Who knows, maybe they're thinking the same thing. Maybe I should leave them alone. I just don't know.


Spare me the "we like you" replies, you don't know me anyway. I'm just wondering if any of you have a similar problem.

I couldn't have wrote it better. The odds of finding someone compatible for friendship or otherwise, are so great that eventually, I gave up trying. It sounds lazy, but it is more of being sick and tired of rejection. Sometimes I miss "playing the game", then I remind myself just how emotionally taxing it can be. The mind can only endure so much pain, before resorting to pattern that minimize it. I think it is some type of survival mechanism.

I know exactly what you mean. I've actually begun to feel that with each passing year I'm becoming less socially functional. I think I maintained fairly well in my twenties, but as time goes by, it's more and more difficult and stressful to exert the psychological energy it takes to pass for (nearly) normal in the NT world.

At one time, I did have a handful of people in my life I thought were my friends. Apparently I was delusional, since I don't hear from any of them anymore. Can't even find them when I try to look them up. Funny thing is, I'm pretty sure some of them may have been on the spectrum themselves, and even they never come round anymore.

I gave up trying myself. No one likes me anyway so what's the use. It's just a waste of time.

Well at least it's not just me, that's how it feels a lot of the time.

It's a confusing world.

I'll through my chip in with you guys too. Got to say I thought I was doing well for a while there and then it always goes to hell. People who used to say hi and talk to me ignore me now, and heres the best part: I didn't do anything wrong to deserve it. I mind my own business and limit how much I bother people so that this doesnt happen but it still seems to. So like the rest of you I think I'm just going to throw in the towel and the F*** with everyone. And ZGhost I know what you mean about mentally asking yourself if your bothering them by just talking to them, I do the same all the time.