Violent meltdown

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So.
I haven't had sleep in two days, I have projects to do, and I'm completely overwhelmed. I was surfing the net and looking at some responses here and someone misunderstood me and got really mad at me. Anyway I was so f*cking pissed at myself I ran outside and I went down towards the parking lot next to the woods and I just started throwing things around, ended up biting my forearm so hard it's wrapped up now (the bleeding has stopped). I just feel like such a f*cking tool, I can't even make friends here, I just piss everyone off, I can't put myself on AIM because I don't think I can handle conversation even of the online kind right now. I can't stop crying and I was wondering if anyone had any advice on how to calm me down because I can't and I have so much work to do...anyone? Please?

EDIT: Okay, looking back that seems extremely emo. But I'm still not calm enough to sleep, does anyone have any advice as to how to feel better?

I wish I had some advice to give. But when Im upset I usually eat something... I dont know whether that would be helpful or not though. Perhaps lying down in a dark, quiet room? Anyway dont worry too much about it, sometimes interaction can get a bit much. (((((((Hugs)))))))

I get overwhelmed by the things I have to do sometimes, but it doesn't help getting the things done by making them bigger and let them taking control over me and my life. Maybe it is an idea to take some steps in what you are describing.

1) Sleep is really necessary to make your brain work properly. No sleep makes things worse, but how to get yourself less restless so you actually can sleep and without taking drugs/pills.
There are a few herbs that can make you more relax. Sage tea or warm (soy)milk with sage. Also the smell of Lavender seems to be relaxing (I advise a plant rather than chemical fake lavender smell). Maybe there are even more herbs? Look it up on the internet?
You can try relaxing exercises. I have told that it need some training but for me it didn't work, but maybe for you it will? No harm in trying! There are 2 types, one that will use your imagination a lot and another 1 that is with muscle tension and relaxation. There are cd's available, or maybe downloads?
I do something that will relax me, getting my mind off what I need/have to do and stresses me up. This can be the 5th time I watch Buffy series or read a comic/graphic novel/book. Anything as long as you feel comfortable and relax and has nothing to do with my work or a project.
You can't do things they way you want to, the way you would like to, the quality you when you are not getting enough sleep. Your brains will not work properly (which leads to frustration, difficult emotions, stress and fatigue). Maybe step one is getting the sleep you need, after this you can take other steps like anger management?

2) You can't do all the work/projects you need to do all at once and at the same time. We aspies are not good in multi tasking anyway. Try to get some extra time for your projects? Explain the situation to somebody etc? I don't know what your projects are, so i can't give a hand there at the moment, but I guess there will be a good chance to create more time when you explain the situation. There might be more understanding than you think right now. To be clear I don't mean postpone things because that leads to more stress.

3) People tend to misunderstand things especially with indirect communication tools like internet and sms. I have this quite regularly with nt's. It is nothing to get really upset about. If a person gets mad at you, it is not worth it to get pissed off at yourself. Think about what good it did to you when you really was throwing things around and hurting yourself? Did it solve the problem? Was it a relief? Did it calm you down or did it create more stress and frustration?
If somebody gets mad at you, especially via indirect communication, cos you don't have to face somebody that is mad at you, nice and safe distance eh Try to stay calm and explain what you mean, maybe you didn't explain it clear enough? Maybe the person just had the wrong end of the stick and that he/she misunderstood you? This way you will show that you are strong and sensible and not avoiding critique or a misunderstanding. Explain this once (twice max!), avoid getting into a discussion which costs (waists) you lots of time and energy.

4) Anger management:
I had emotional break downs and some very aggressive too. I used a technique that might be quit unusual to other people, but it helped me to gain control over my emotions again. When I got really angry or upset I made myself more angry or more upset, realizing I was doing this myself I was able to make myself less angry or less upset, so after making myself less upset I created time to have a good look at the situation and taking some good breaths. It made me think is it worth to get so angry or upset, is it worth waisting my energy on it? Most of the time it is really not. It did cost me quite a bit of effort (training) but now I have control over my emotions again. A punch bag might be handy with tis technique I seriously thinking of getting one actually.
What didn't work for me, but what worked for other people is literally count to ten, breathing calmly in and out (in via the nose, out via the mouth) and take a step back thinking if it is worth to get so angry or upset (most of the time it turns out it isn't).
This technique didn't work for me because I tend to suppress my emotions this way and at some point I did just explode over something really silly.

5) Nobody will force you into a conversation here. I hope I just give you some handy feed back. You are not pissing me off. If you feel like a tool, pick up the tool, try to get control over it. It is an easy thing to say but you can get into control again (hopefully I gave some handy feedback here) and once you are in control again, it feels good, you won't feel like a tool anymore!

What might help too is making an action plan for the week.
Include: 1) What you are going to do

Heehee wrong button.
An actionplan.
Make sure it includes:
1) What you are going to do
2) How much you are going to do
3) When you are going to do it (what time of day)
4)How many days a week you are going to do it

How certain are you that you will accomplish your action plan (number from 0 to 10)? 0 = not at all certain and 10 = totally certain.

Write down the days of the week and tick each day you accomplish the plan. Write down comments with that day, how you feel etc.

Hi there,

Yeah, what to do when compulsive thoughts overwhelm everything else? Nothing seems to work to get rid of them.
I think I understand, I have it too and when it's impossible to get some sleep my perception tend to go in panic state and I blows things way out of perspective.

Anger releases perticular hormones like adrenaline, cortisol and others and they make it quite impossible to get some sleep.
Try not to be angry before you lay down. Easier said then done.
Ventilate that anger, maybe by senseless exercise like running or yeah, throwing things around. Please don't hurt yourself.

Writing stuff down, for me, is also a good ventilation technique.
Trying to make some sense in the chaos of emotions and feelings of frustration.

Point your nose towards the things you love or like. Like me you like creative things or to create things. For me to put a fresh canvas (or a carton box unfold or something else) on the floor and ventilate my frustration in red or orange (or what ever colour) and release my anger onto that surface works quite good. Anger and frustration let out in this way sometimes even gets a nice work. Or nice, bizarre often. But hey, I let my mind go and for a moment I wasn't thinking 'bout the sheit that made me so angry.

Say to yourself, 'calm down' several times in a nice tone of voice.
And not forgetting that in one or two days things seem or in fact are quite different. Your perspective on the matter is different and you wonder why you got sooooo frustrated in the first place.
Your perspective on things changes and by remembering that maybe you can think hey, in a couple of days things will be different, I've got to have a little bit of patience.

I hope I don't offend you by seemely such simple thoughts. I trying to help.

Best of luck to you,
C.

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Snowy owl, what you say makes quite a lot of sense, sometimes the most simple thoughts are the most useful/helpful eh!
I am busy with a self management course at the moment (for people with long term health issues) and I get lots of tips from and hand outs it. I learn a lot and some techniques work for me and some just won't.
It's up to Aurore to pick out the things/techniques that works for her.
Also things/situations/feelings are a different for different people and on top of that its all different again for us aspies too.

Sorry meant Ermina....

Thank you guys so much, this has been a big help. I am considerably calmer now!