Should I tell someone from the past about my behaviour?

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What is the point? topic

I was going to send an e-mail to someone I used to know from years ago and explain my rather bizarre behaviour, in that I have a "challenge". This is unsolicited. He may not remember me anyway. Is this wise? What would be the point? I do not want a relationship, I just wanted to clear the air. Strange?

I would appreciate all input.

Until you can answer this, you won't have any answer.

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Guess I should clarify - if it's someone you haven't seen in a long time, the air is clear because you're not around them. You should stop worrying about having "scarred" them and let it go.

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Thanks, t0. I am glad I did not make a mistake. I have made enough of them!

I'd let it drop. No one from my past - not even my siblings and other relatives - needs any explanation of my behavior, whether past, present, or future.

Do not make the same mistake twice topic

Thanks, Fnord.

Conclusion topic

I appreciate all teh input about my little topic. I usually do not post here but something was angging me. had been going through some boxes and noticed a name from the past in a series of news letters I received from an institution more than 25 years ago. I suppose I was curious about what happened to some o the other names i saw. So I ggoled the names and found two of them.

One died last February. Another has a website connected to another institution where he practices. You could e-mail him through his secretary. I started and tried to explain my behaviour. I thought the better of it and deleted it before I sent it. Then I went here to WP and explained my dilemma. I am glad the members here responded so wisely. I almost made a mistake.

What has happened in the past has happened. It is set in stone and undoable. It is just there. It is the way I am. To explain it to someone is pointless. This person did not ask me to write and had no idea that I was going to and then changed my mind. I think I would have felt foolish, and even more so had he not even "remembered".

Better to let some things alone, let them sleep, and let them die anatural death, like one of the persons I mentioned who passed away last February. The past, as I know this to be, is beyond reach and is no longer "me".

What did you do that makes you need to explain it after all these years? I'm curious.

I say you should ignore it and move on. I feel like doing the same at times so that people would understand, but then I decided to leave it considering that I'll probably never see them again.

I could write a book on this! topic

Well, Ana54, 28 yeas ago next month I was going to convert to this religion and I went to see this guy at his institution, about conversion I was embarrassed and it was hard to open up. I felt silly. I guess he sensed my embarrassment because after that he sort of let another institution that I went to (a house of worship same religion I was going to convert to) know that I had gone to see him. It is hard to explain. Then I was embarrassed even more and had meltdowns. People would kind of be in on the joke from the other guy. I do not know why I put up with this but people would tease me about my embarassment. I did not like to be singled out. After three years of this weirdness in this community I decided not to convert. I know this is a strange story but I guess I wanted to convert because I wanted to belong. I was always Aspie, of course (but I did not know this then) and I thought these people would accept me because I was different. My behaviour in this community at the time was not great, and with the embarrassment, even worse. I suppose THEY should have apologized to me.

I think what I was hoping was that if I apologized to this guy via e-mail he would have done the same!! But wishful thinking. And maybe he would have written something back and I would have felt even worse!! Just a strange situation. I do not blame you if you do not understand it very well. I think I will just let it go as I wrote a few posts back. Others have advised the same thing, and I trust their judgment.

Thanks for responding, Ana54. Hope the little one is doing well.