Im sick of me, society and school

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Ok. Bottom line. Life sucks. period. I constantly get low scores in this special school i was forced to go to, my parents dont understand why im so sad all the time, i can't even add fractions, infact, i struggle with things like 32 + 65. Im that pathetic, and people tell me i deserve to live.

Its not just maths, Im failing at science too, and compared to math and science art and english dont even matter (the subject im good at, although im gonna fail them anyway) And then, theres me. a fat ugly pile of bullcrap. No one will ever love me, im cold, im angry, im agressive, no one talks to me at school because im "weird" for being sad all the time.

Society has failed me. I am defective, I am a freak, I deserve to die. I just wanna die, right here, right now.
Why is life so hard?

a few questions:
is school the only one thing that makes you think no one will love you?
don't you think that in some time you'll see it in a different way?
why do you think so bad about yourself, because of studies?
you're young and you still haven't done all those things you can do in your future, so don't think about yourself so bad and don't think you'll not be loved.

Well...

No school is not the only thing. There is also the fact that i act strange, and the fact that i talk, walk, and think strange.

I dont know. i might just stop trying and become a worthless freak with a dead end job

Because smartness is the only thing i have left that i havent F^^ked up, and im dumb so i am nothing

And yes i am loved - by family. I have no friends, ive never as much kissed a girl, I never go out and do things, and i dont think i ever will. Im gonna end up in a care home.

Um...you're telling me you're considered weird at a special school? I'm weird at normal school, but special school!? You're weord amongst the weird. You might as well kill yourself now LOL. Or find your thing. Then your life will be more complete. Mine's guitar. I'm really still learning but I love it and I'm awesome. You know Curt Cobain was a loser before he discovered punk rock.

Life is so hard probably because you're an aspie.
SOCIETY is the problem, NOT YOU. See, society is set up the way NEUROTYPICALS want it.
By the way.. you're only focusing on the things that people make you feel bad about. You should think about the things you ARE good at. For example, you're good at writing/composing words, and your post doesn't have any typos!! You're good at that and didn't even realize it. So many people have problems writing and spelling words; did you know that?
That's just one example. I also think you look great. Just turn that pout into a smile!
You gotta stop listening to people if they're telling you that you're defective!! Don't listen to that bullcrap, ok?
Seriously.
Whoever is telling you that is the one that is defective.
Just brighten up and focus more on the positive things. You DO deserve to live! I would cry if you were gone. I would be sad. Please don't go away; stay here. I love you!

Plus, remember this: the harder the life, the more you learn and grow. You WILL be rewarded from having such a life. Stick it out; you won't regret it!

If you say that you are dumb, strange and pathetic you will believe it.
I had a terrible time in a normal school. No friends and I was the worst student in my class. I found my niche in art and I won the art award out of the whole school, even beat people older than me.
I am an adult now and horrible at maths, because after I left school I stopped learning it and soon forgot about all I learned. But you know even if I'm bad at maths I'm still good in other areas, more creative ones. You just need to find what you are good at. Don't say you're good at nothing. You have AS so if you set your mind to something you will be good at it.
I think you look fine. Stop using negative words to describe yourself.