BURN DOWN, FAMILY ABODE!! !

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I hate "my" family! After so many yers of tornment and abuse - what else could I write? Father? f**k him! He doesn't even realize he has got a daughter (narcistic bastard!). He never realized it! Within the age of 4 and the age of 17 - I only got to meet him twice He never even wrote me! He never cared. I HATE THE FATHER! Mother? f****n b***h! She destroyed me... She destroyed me... She destroyed me... I HATE THE MOTHER! Sister? God damn it! She's just unsensitive whore! She instilled fear, anxiety and self-hate in me... She taught me to take every blame on me. She taught me I'm no one and nothing... She still devastates me - nevermind all those miles from here to Switzerland. She still poisones me. She enjoys when I suffer... I HATE THE SISTER! Why they keep hurting me? Why they keep putting me down? f****n hell! Why the hell was I even born? I hate the world! What the hell have I done in my previous incarnation, so now I suffer so f****n much? I hate the fate! Or is it just God who hates me so much, and obtains pleasure from my pain? f**k

Maybe it's time to say "screw 'em all", turn your back on them, and go in another direction. Find a place to sit and re-evaluate, and start over. If the wrongs they have done you are still eating at you, that gives them power over you that they don't really have. So just screw 'em.

I dont have anything to do with my half sister or stepdad and if its any help find your own parents. Like what I mean, what you dont get from your parents you can get off over people. Alot of my friends have been caring like a mother to me and I dont crave what I cant get from my own mum no more. Same with men. My Stepdad was never my Dad and didnt treat me so well. So when I was younger I got bf's that was older and really caring. I guess like a sugar daddy but I got the love I needed.

Agree. They still have power over me. But I'm trying, I'm trying so hard to cut this hell-bound. Just to end it... I have to find strenght - and I have to find it within myself; no one from the outside is able (or willing), to help me.

You're right - screw them all! I want to live for myself, without enyone else telling me who I'm supposed to be and what I'm supposed to do or say... f**k the world

Maybe you should tell them what do you fell about them. Maybe they will understand and change their attitude.

i would swear that you sound just like kasuki-chan
but i hope things get bether

Kasuki-Chan? I know nothing about this guy I don't want to sound like anyone else! I want to sound like myself! Is that my fault that someone else (doubt that) share my experiances? (doubt that) You made me really sad, UndercoverAlien...
Why would you want to make me sad?

Hatred will destroy you. Hatred born of self hatred will erase your own identity. We are all human, therefore we all are a little in common. You're dislike for your parents is justified, otherwise you wouldn't hate them. However, if you allow that hatred to consume you, they win. The opposite of love is not hate; rather, it is indifference. Learn not to care, not to harbor an ounce of dislike or affection, and you will be free from whatever bonds that hold you.

However, I suspect that your hatred of your parents is a mask for self-loathing that you have for yourself and your flaws. If you want to be happy, you must love yourself. Love yourself, even your faults and flaws, and no one can ever hurt you.

I wish you the best of luck in your life, my friend.

To answer the last question of your original post, it is not God who hates you, and it is not the world which hates you.



It is you who hates you.

No one make make you feel sad without your cooperation.

My mother destroyed my life.

I say the same about my dad, and I left home a week after graduating high school.

Wow ... deja vu ... have I had this same conversation with you before?

Not yet.

Ah! Veja Du! Carry on, then ...

This is indeed true. I hate myself and I want to die. World is only cynical

Welcome in the club, my brother